Player name: Emmy
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longagotomorrowAIM: lackofsatin
Email: halfthewaffles at gmail
Other characters: Amy, Robb
Character name: Sarah Walker/Jennifer Burton/various aliases. Real name is possibly Sam.
Age: 26, theoretically
Canon: Chuck
Canon point: During 2x21, "Chuck Versus the Colonel," after she and Chuck have been arrested by Casey. It's probably fair to say she dosed off for a bit during the hours they were locked up.
Totem: Mary Bartowski's charm bracelet, given to her by Chuck as a Christmas gift. During a fissure all the charms on it will be little converse sneakers.
Weapons: A
Smith & Wesson 5906 with two 15 round clips, a leg sheath containing three throwing knives, a bowie knife, and a large serrated folding knife.
Abilities/powers: Sarah has no supernatural or superhuman powers, but she does have quite a range of mad skills that come with being a spy:
- She is an exceedingly capable fighter, and can run, jump, punch, kick, and do crazy acrobatic flipping.
- She's one of the best sharp-shooters in the world. She's fast and uncannily accurate with a handgun. She also knows her way around pretty much all the bigger guns (assault rifles, submachine guns, shotguns, and sniper rifles mainly).
- She's so skilled at knife-throwing that somebody actually asks if she's an Intersect (ie. if her brain is basically a computer). She can also use other objects, such as pencils, like throwing knives.
- She's fluent in Polish, and is somewhere between conversant and fluent in German, Russian, French, Thai, Spanish, Basque, and Swedish. She can also do very credible accents, including Texan, English, and Australian, probably amongst others.
- She's decent at lock-picking and other forms of breaking and entering.
- She knows how to disable very basic bombs.
- She has the training necessary to pass lie detector tests, and has a conditioned immunity to truth serum.
- She's a consummate liar, able to switch emotions on and off fairly easily, and is adept at reading and manipulating people.
- She's licensed to fly airplanes and is at least able to talk Chuck through landing a helicopter one time.
- And in the miscellaneous category: she can dance at black tie functions, do basic field medicine, ride horses, climb mountains, decorate wedding cakes, and can cook certain dishes very well.
Location: A specific
bit of beach on the California coast. The only thing that distinguishes it from any other bit of beach are the seven palm trees.
Personality: Because of her profession and the way she was raised, Sarah goes out of her way to present a "Sarah" to the world that is almost completely fake. To most people, she is sweet, upbeat, and not terribly adventurous. She has no trouble sliding into this persona whenever she wants to, but that's all it is: a persona. In reality, Sarah usually comes across as the polar opposite: distant, easily irritated, and ready and willing to hurt people. Casey describes her as a "wild card enforcer," and says that her description of him as "unfriendly, unforgiving, and unquestioning about orders" applies to her as much as it does him. Over the course of the show, Chuck's doofy, open-hearted nature influences Sarah in a lot of ways, but when push comes to shove she proves that she can go back to being the "old Sarah" like flipping a switch.
Sarah was always a consummate professional, or at least she likes to think of herself as one. She knows that her job will entail morally ambiguous acts and decisions, but she tries to live by the idea of 'greatest good for the greatest number,' and she obeys orders. Anything beyond that, any bigger-picture thinking, she leaves up to her superiors. She's a fan of the 'my country right or wrong' idea, and frames a lot of her ideology in terms of patriotism. The fastest way to piss her off is to question her professionalism, her loyalty, or her dedication to the job. She is, in fact, so committed to duty and country that she blithely offers to arrest her own father, a con artist, after he rips off a Saudi oil tycoon. But in spite of all this, she's not afraid to take matters into her own hands when she feels it necessary, going against not only her superior's direct orders, but basic common sense to accomplish what she feels needs to be accomplished. No matter how defensive she is about her professionalism, there are times when she goes completely off the reservation, without hesitation or any thoughts about the consequences. This sort of thing usually happens when her partner, whoever that happens to be at the time, gets into trouble. Sarah is loyal to her partner above all else, including her boss and her country. But if her partner proves to be less than worthy of her loyalty, she'll have no problem kicking his or her ass.
It barely even phases Sarah when someone close to her betrays her. She's extremely suspicious by nature, and wholly buys into her father's philosophy that you have to be savvy and always thinking one step ahead of everyone else or they'll end up burning you. Because she lives in a world where most things are fake, she's constantly on her guard and always looking out for people trying to manipulate her or lie to her. This leads to her prying into other people's business a lot, and she tends to justify her suspicious behavior with all sorts of excuses rather than simply owning up to the fact that she hates it when people do things without telling her. Sarah also doesn't really believe that any secret could be harmless or that there's such a thing as a good surprise. Even after she and Chuck are married and she's realized that he likes to spring nice surprises on her, she still goes out of her way to figure out everything he's up to. She also keeps anything that could potentially be used against her - her family, her past, even her real name - a closely guarded secret. She lies to everyone she knows, all the time. Eve Chuck doesn't know her real name. She's kept secrets for so long that it's almost like she can't stop. And the constant lying never seems strange to her, and she never has any qualms about it or difficulty keeping track of the lies: it's just part of the job, and she's very good at her job.
This is all to be blamed on Sarah's trust issues. She's never had anyone she could rely on to always be there for her and to really care about her, so it's her default to assume that nobody will be and nobody does. She believes that opening herself up emotionally will get her hurt, so she rarely shows real, not-faked emotions around anybody but those she's most comfortable with. She actually says at one point, "spies don't have emotions." She also hates relying on people, and has developed a serious lone wolf mentality because of it.
Part of being a spy is being able to kill people and make decisions that get people killed. Sarah's been in so many kill-or-be-killed situations that she's become extremely ruthless. She kills people all the time, and she never spends time wringing her hands and feeling bad about it. And it's not just killing: she has no trouble manipulating people and then burning them when they've outlived their usefulness. She keeps herself at arms-length from almost everyone, because she knows that relationships in her profession are a tool, something that people use for leverage, and are a liability. She believes that people with emotional attachments, with something to lose, are more prone to getting hurt or dying because of it. But recently, Chuck has begun to sway her over to the idea that "it helps to know you've got something worth losing," and though her relationship with him has caused them both genuine problems, she's started to see their bond as a strength rather than a weakness.
All of her professionalism and ass-kicking and emotional distance serves to cover up the fact that, deep down, Sarah actually is a sweet, upbeat, and compassionate person. Despite her alleged disdain of emotions, she frequently makes decisions based on her gut or her heart rather than her head, and she derisively refers to Casey as a "burnout" for his apparent inability to do the same. Unlike many of the other agents put in charge of the Intersect, Sarah sees Chuck as a human being, and treats his emotional well-being as importantly as she does his physical well-being. She watches out for his friends and family, because he's always worried about them, and she's gotten very good at talking him down and making him feel safe and confident on missions. The more she gets to know Chuck, the more he brings out her emotional, more "human" side.
It's implied that her ruthlessness is something Sarah had to work on. When taking her Red Test, a sort of final exam for spies in which the spy has to prove they're willing to kill on command, she hesitated in killing her target right up until she thought that the target was reaching for a weapon. She later describes her Red Test as "the worst night of [her] life." In general, Sarah views killing as a point of no return: she views herself as irrevocably changed post-Red Test, and she spends a lot of time worrying that Chuck is becoming a harder, crueler person because the CIA is prepping him for his Red Test. She fell in love with him because he's far kinder than people in her profession can afford to be, and once he actually goes through with his Red Test, she falls out of love with him until she realizes that it was Casey who killed Chuck's target for him, because Chuck still isn't the kind of guy who can blithely take a human life. All this points to the fact that Sarah has a great deal of respect for human life, and though she kills people all the time, she will always go out of her way to avoid harming those who don't have it coming.
Because of her upbringing and early recruitment into the agency, Sarah has very little experience with normality. Pop culture, even references to things as big as Star Wars, tend to go over her head. In real social situations, she can be pretty awkward. When she attempts to hang with Morgan, to make him feel like less of a third wheel, she tries hard but clearly has no idea what she's doing. Faking a connection with someone? Simple. Forming a real connection? Off-putting and uncomfortable.
But there is a part of her that dreams of a normal life. She has a fairly elaborate fantasy of one day quitting the spy business and settling down in a house with a red front door and a white picket fence, getting married and having kids, etc. But it's just a dream, and not one she thinks will be realized soon, if ever. And Chuck keeps reinforcing the reality of her situation: no matter how hard she tried, she could never really be normal.
Before Chuck, she never had normal friends, or a normal boyfriend. Though Bryce says they were in love, there are strong implications that Sarah never loved Bryce with the same sort of intensity she does Chuck. She acts like she and Carina are friends, but when contrasted against Chuck and Morgan's friendship they seem more like colleagues who more or less get along, not real friends. Sarah doesn't seem to know much about real friendships and real relationships, and so is experiencing a lot of things for the first time. She often finds normal things intense, confusing, and scary. Even helping Chuck's sister and her fiancé plan their wedding is too much for her (as she puts it: "I have worked presidential secret service, I've gone hand-to-hand with assassins, but your sister's wedding..."). And when she and Chuck do leave the CIA and get married and start down the path to a relatively safe, normal existence, she starts to freak out, and the closer they come to owning a house and having kids, the deeper she goes into panic mode. It's Chuck that keeps her sane and helps her settle into it, much as she does for him with all the spy stuff.
History: Sarah's history is terribly mysterious. She claims that her real name is Sam, but from a very young age and she her father were traveling the country, never settling down in one place for too long, constantly changing their names. Why? "Jack Burton," as he is sometimes known, was a con artist, and he taught his daughter "Jennifer" everything he knew. As a young child, she did, for a time, live with her (presumably maternal) grandmother, who tried to keep her and her father apart, but Sam/Jenny, dreaming of adventure, escaped and ran off with him. She kept in touch with her mother, but didn't see her much after that. When Sam/Jenny was in high school, her father was arrested by the ATF. She was approached by Langston Graham, a CIA operative looking to recruit her. She became Sarah Walker. Sarah may or may not have then gone on to Harvard, where she was more "officially" brought into the CIA.
When she was in her early 20's, she took her Red Test, meaning she had to execute someone on the CIA's orders. She did it with only a minor hiccup. After that, she spent some time on a secret service detail. She was also involved in a sort of Charlie's Angels-esque hit team, but they broke up. Eventually, she was partnered with Bryce Larkin, with whom she ended up having an affair. Bryce was killed breaking into a CIA facility and destroying the Intersect, a joint CIA/NSA supercomputer that stored all the government's secret files. The CIA told Sarah that before blowing the computer up, Bryce had downloaded all the information on it and sent it to someone, and she was to track that someone down.
That someone was Chuck Bartowski, a humble computer technician at a Burbank electronics store, who Bryce had gone to Stanford with. He had opened the email from Bryce, and the Intersect had been subliminally downloaded into his brain. Sarah, along with her new NSA partner, Major John Casey, was tasked with protecting Chuck and using him as the Intersect was meant to be used: as a tool for taking down terrorists and assassins and other badguys. In order to stay close to Chuck and have an excuse to be hanging around him all the time, Sarah pretended to be Chuck's girlfriend, which got complicated when they started developing real feelings for each other.
Then one day, it turned out Bryce was really alive. He told them that he hadn't gone rogue: he had been assigned by the CIA to destroy the Intersect. It was only after it was too late that he had found out that it wasn't the CIA, it was a secret organization within the CIA: Fulcrum. Fulcrum was your basic evil cabal, deeply embedded in the US government. It wanted to create a human-Intersect hybrid of its own, but in order to do so, it had to reconstruct the Intersect, and find someone capable of surviving having all that information dumped in their head. They were after Orion, the man who had built the first Intersect, who turned out to be Chuck's long-lost father. Fulcrum captured Orion and forced him to build a new Intersect, and the team's attempts to rescue him led to disaster. Their boss, General Beckman, ordered the Intersect project shut down and Chuck locked away underground never to be seen again. Instead of bringing him in, Sarah warned Chuck about Beckman's plans, and the two went AWOL in an attempt to rescue Orion. Casey was given the order to get Sarah and Chuck back at all costs. One epic brawl later, Sarah and Chuck were confined to a cell in their own secret base, awaiting transportation to a more permanent holding facility where Chuck would be confined for the protection of the Intersect and Sarah would be tried for treason.
3rd person sample: --
1st person sample: [There are a few bursts of garbled audio. Those listening closely might make out a woman's voice, but the sound is mostly static and it's impossible to tell what she's saying. This is Sarah, attempting to communicate via comm on an encrypted frequency.
Finally, having discovered the network and read everybody's old entries, Sarah turns on her phone's camera. She's still damp and sandy. She looks sort of irritated, and maybe a little freaked out, but she's clearly trying to cover up any and all fear. Of course, the fear is an act, but it's very convincingly faked.]
Okay. Hi. [She takes a deep breath, and relaxes a bit.] Hi. This feels kind of weird, just talking like this and not really knowing who's out there. I saw that there's some kind of network... I'm not getting stuff from people on the other side of the world, am I? Are there people here? 'Cause there's a whole city right in front of me and I don't see anybody.
Look, I was just in my boyfriend's apartment, watching a movie, and now I'm suddenly on this beach, and how does that work, exactly? Where is here?