"Some of us wait for a messiah to come once and forever; others of us wait for Him to come back.  But we are both stuck living in a world where redemption is not complete, where we have redemptive work to do, where we cannot always see God as clearly as we would like, because He is up in Heaven.  We are both waiting." -Lauren Winner

Bridget and I took a road trip to New Mexico for the break.  It was amazing, fun, a little creepy; creepy because the men there are ever so slightly more agressive than they are in Texas.  Brian says this is because in Texas, they know their asses are fried if they do anything to us.  I guess by lethal injection or angry relatives with shotguns, ( Read more... )

"i'm poised on the edge of
what it all means
so i turn my back
and i spread my arms wide
and i let myself fall in
way deep inside

and i ain't in the best shape
that i've ever been in
but i know where i'm going
it ain't where i've been..."

oh ani difranco, my heart belongs to you.

A friend asked me the other day if I was happy.  I said that I was, and I guess that's basically true, but I've been thinking about it ever since, and there's so much more to it than that.

I mean, what is happiness?  Is happiness being sure of who you are and what you have and where you're going?  Because if it is, I would say no, and I don't think ( Read more... )

"But I am incapable, I am weak, I am stubborn, and childish, I am tired, and my armpits stink because I did not shower today.  I am not okay.  I am not civilized, not polite, not gentle.  I mope around with school hanging over my head like a flippin piano about to fall.  No, I am not good at life.  No, I'm not good at recieving from God. No, I'm ( Read more... )

I want to know God's will, when I barely want to know God.

Jesus, be my strength.

1) Start writing again.
2) Pick a major and apply to a college.*
3) Take a road trip.
4) Take a dance class.
5) Read more books.
6) Overanalyze things a tiny bit less.
7) Enjoy the present.
8) Delight in the Lord.**
9) Learn how to cook.

*i guess this one isn't really an option or something i'd like to do...it's kinda something i have to do.
**while i do ( Read more... )

"Listen ( Read more... )