okay no, really, you can stop now...

[this_town_bites]

just when i thought this week couldn't get any worse i find out during a fight with my half brother ((we have the same father)) that the only reason i exist is because my mom went through all of my father's condoms and poked holes in them, then fought him every step of the way while he tried to convince her to have an abortion

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[bookunfinished]

i have been keeping up with your posts, but i haven't known what to say. i'm sorry that you are going through such a rough time. i think that you are a beautiful person, and you are in my thoughts.

[this_town_bites]

that's very sweet of you carmen.

[cognitoface]

whoa.

this sounds like something you need to talk about with your mom if it is possible. people say some fucked up (and sometimes untrue) things when they are upset.

BUT even if it WAS true at the time, that doesn't mean your father doesn't love you or want you NOW. that stuff changes, especially if your father was young at the time.

i know hearing stuff like that can't help your sense of self-worth or motivate you to be a better person. all i can say is that sometimes you have to forcibly MAKE yourself a better person in spite of all the naysayers who tell you that this is impossible.

[anonymous]

i love you. i want you. it explains why i keep having weird hopes that i will show up for my first lit crit class and you will be there.
remember what we told brendon in eighth grade? if your family sucks, then your friends become your family. still holds true.
-turtle

[this_town_bites]

i wish i could come visit you on my way back home, best friend.

i also wish i was in your lit crit class. we should have gone to college together. or at least closer together. piss poor planning on our part.