Mom

[thisdesire]

There is this incessant wall of fear that divides my mom and me, and it has been there for years. I'm not sure if fear is the right word, but it's the closest I could come up with. Everytime I talk to her, even about stupid stuff, like, "What time are we leaving?" I feel threatened. I'm not saying, "Oh, feel sorry for me," but I feel threatened

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[paranoid_zio]

Wow... i wanna say something like things will get better; but that's just cliche... Everyone has a hard family life, and the ones that seem most stable are usually the worst behind covers; you're not alone. But it is hard when it seems the family just doesn't care; I'm not on the same scale, but there are times when I felt that way from my home; especially with the hobbies i take to heart. I guess one of the only ways to handle it is to push through it; treat your friends more like family, since sometimes they are closer to you and understand you better. People don't change easily, and you feel like you need to help, and you may help, but some of these people are so set in these ways they can't get out of it. Sometimes the best you can do is don't pass these feelings down to your kids; if/when you become a parent, don't let life turn out like yours; show them the family you wanted to have... i'm ranting now I guess... Just do what you feel you have to, and even if it fails, at least you tried.

[ricecrispea]

awwww you need lots o hugs. We all come from fucked up families. I don't know wheather your mom is just growing apart from you on purpose because she thinks you will be the next her or what.....don't worry I'm sure it's just the men with that last name that are assholes...your a doll not an asshole. I love you tara!

[abandonedsmile]

I think it's just a mom thing. I don't know what her thoughts are about everything so I can't really make a comment. but too bad you can't tell her you went there alone before. BC is responsible. my mom didn't say anything about it. part of me wishes she would have talked to me when she found out, but it made me so mad that Faith told her that I also didn't want her too. sigh.

[rojocaliente]

I love you Tara!!