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[thishideous]

this mistery unfolded and brought life to my sick side. its been a few years since i tried to hide it but part of me wants to do it agian. love is a fucking joke its something only god can do, we can merly try but deep down we hate. i hate. hate is natural its comfterble espeacly once your yoused to the pain.

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[ladyxbug]

love is so complicated. it's comfort, it's distress, it's trusting blindly. Hate is such a harsh word. I guess either one or the other comes naturally to some people. I know you (as well as I can know someone I see about once every six months or so - I'm sorry, I'm antisocial :(
and I know that you're a good person and you're mean or hateful. Inside you have a heart of gold, but I think you need to do a lot of soul searching and some time spent in quiet reflection with God, asking him to show you the way. Hand your problems over to Him and amazing changes will happen in your life.
God wants us to experience love, just as He loves us. And we are all able to do that, with His help, eventually we'll arrive there. But it's a continual process. We keep growing and changing and our expectations for love change, and if it's properly tended, it can blossom into something very rewarding.
God works in mysterious ways like that.
Keep your chin up. You're a good kid ;)