so i find myself back in a familiar space. one that is far away from what i want...from what i need, one that has become comfortable, one that has become fuzzy and warm...safe. and i already miss what is still here, i already miss waking up to her, the spot where her neck begins the smell of her breath with mine, half a smirk arms around my waist ( Read more... )

i told my mom about chelsea last night...she expected it. i feel a lot better about it though she advised me to not tell anyone else in the family especially the men. whatever...at least she knows and i don't feel like im hiding anything from her anymore. it went well, my eyes still burn from the crying.

greta's graduation has come and gone and im exhausted...so exhausted. woke up early this morning to take greta and company to the mall to get makeovers, then took them out to lunch and then to graduation. im really tired and we still have dinner to go out to tonight with the rest of the family that couldn't go because they only gave us two tickets ( Read more... )

only have two more papers to write for this academic year...thats three years down and one to go. and everyone has already started asking me what i want to do with the rest of my life...more school please. i think i would have to take a break in between...a six month break...that way i don't have to start paying off my student loans...i should ( Read more... )

happy birthday to me...its weird being 21...feels the same as being 20...feels the same as being 19...feels the same as being 18...

chocolate cakes are the hardest thing to bake...well maybe not the hardest thing. the frosting is hard to make when you have no idea what the hell you are doing, got chocolate everywhere today...everywhere, im probably still going to find it in the strangest places...jen better appreciate all the hard work that i put in on her cake. i hope she ( Read more... )

blah blah blah...im so excited that this is the last weekend of my show...things will finally become easier...i hope. i'll be done and i won't have to be responsible for everything ever again. why do i love stage managing so? my life would be a whole hell of a lot easier if i didn't like it...if i didn't work...something like that...but you don' ( Read more... )

i sat down to write an email to mark yesterday and i didn't know what to say. i didn't know what i wanted to tell him, if he would care anymore about the stuff i would usually tell him in an email. so i sat there in front of the computer screen cursor blinking away the minutes until i got distracted by something else and had to close the window ( Read more... )

16. never do the reading for any of your other classes ( Read more... )

i just talked to my dad and i told him that mark and i broke up and he proceeded to tell me how to get another boyfriend...boy-friend. he told me to go and study at the library often, so that i notice the ones who work hard and care about school...thats where the good ones are according to my father. he then gave me a lesson on flirting and asked ( Read more... )