life is a fucking shit storm with no relief no solace no sanctuary. I'm a sucker, a door mat, a push over and completely spineless, destined in life only to be taken advantage of, used up, and wrung out like a god damned sympathy sponge until there's absolutely nothing left but feeling like it's ultimately my fault for fostering such treatment in ( Read more... )

my grades ( Read more... )

and the inevitable awkward in between years of my life have crept upon me in the night and were waiting impatiently beside my bed this morning when i woke.

all things work together for good.

I have epoxy in my hair, a skin of acrylic medium on each finger, (poisonous!)manganese stain on my chest and forearms, and I'm pretty sure I won't be getting any sleep tonight ( Read more... )

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I'm not miss patriotic or anything close to it, but I guess it sounds a million times more amazing when five little girls under the age of eight are singing it ( Read more... )

Want to get it all behind me ( Read more... )

I can say that I've lived here in honor and danger ( Read more... )

the potential life has to surprise and completely change in a few moments never ceases to amaze me. I feel like I'm living someone else's life right now. waiting for reality to set in is a terrible thing, but I hope it never happens because I want to keep feeling this free and full and confident forever.

seeing as the only person I can ultimately rely on is myself, and no amount of supposed love or caring has prevented regular disappointment and heartache, I should probably learn to do that.