okay..seriously..last night was like the worst night i have ever had for a very long time. boys are jerks. well..boy..everyones like it probably wasnt him!! and im like um. i know i want to believe you but i think it was him..he doesnt want me to screw up anything else then he already has.. whatever fuck him. it was time for someone new anyways. ( Read more... )

im sitting here eating pizza. i am very bored and you would think that sense i am alone but im not. welll...calissa and jamie are in the house with me but i dont know where they went and it is unusually quiet lol im kind of afraid to go look so i wont. i watched donnie darko today. weird movie. i liked it. i guess everyone really does die alone. ( Read more... )

i DID go to school. i went to zero and becasme suddenly grumpy after i went to the restroom. after zero i ran around looking for tylonel/midol/asprin/ found erica and luckily sense she is like a pharmacy i got some.Midol tEEn BITCH. okay. nichole was like sick. and i felt like i couldnt walk so we decided to leave and go to nicholes house and then ( Read more... )

i hate that. i have red hair and freckles. people will see me and then see someone else with red hair in freckles or just red hair. and they will be like are u guys related? wth is that. no we're not. theres more then one people who have red hair that arnt related. like a kazillion!!! unless my mother was a slut i dont think so!okay so done with ( Read more... )

//didnt i say i was going to write in this thing every day?. i think i did. i dont want to be addicted to myspace anymore. its bad. my own silly drug. okay umm..haha she reads his messages..haha..um..drama drama...i feel scared and badly beaten..i have a bruise on my knee..ow..scared becasue we keep getting blackouts..the dark gives me goosebumps ( Read more... )

okay so i guess i got mad at livejournal because i wrote this fucking long ass entry off my new years weekend and it was soo great becasue..it just was!! and like i pushed send or submit or whatever and it didnt work. what a bummer!! okay yea so im too lazy to write it again so i guess i will just say i had a good weekend ( Read more... )

i was putting a necklace on my kitten and i let her go and she was just fine. and then my sister starts yelling at me that im choking her and i look down and my cat was coughing so i took off the necklace...lol im such a mean owner this is horrible im scared for some odd reason now..i didnt know cats could cough..hm..later im going to lisa and i ( Read more... )

i still dont know whats going to happen. with him and whatever else is going to go on with my life. and i think now im kind of realizing that its okay. i also see that if i wanted him so much and thought that he wanted me dont u think that he would be trying to figure things out like i am? and he isnt. so that makes me feel GREAT. i get why i ( Read more... )

i guess i am getting pretty pathetic. more and more im listening to songs that i can completely relate to. i listen to the lyrics and i think in my head, this is my life, this is my story. its getting sad how many songs are adding to the list and how long i have been just waiting for him to say hi. he was so perfect in my eyes. its horrible how ( Read more... )

she tells the only guy in the world that i cant stop thinking about that everything between me and him was bullshit. of course he believes her. they are related. i dont understand why he doesnt see that i really do want to be with him. i dont understand why she doesnt see i really do like him. i really do love him. i dont know how i love him though ( Read more... )