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[thisrainpours]

I don't think
I like the idea
of taking pills to make you normal.
and to make you think differently.
the idea actually quite offended me.
I'm not depressed.
so I don't get it.

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[down_again_4now]

i understand where your confusion is coming from.
i have been diagnosed as being bipolar
and i asked if i would need medication
(after many many tears that were shed)
and they asked me who i wanted to be.
what my idea of 'normal' was
and if i wanted to be that.

i said i wanted to be in control of my emotions
i said i wanted to know that a bad mood
will not destroy my entire day.
i said that i wanted to go a week
without feeling as if i were constantly riding
a kiddy mood rollar coaster.
with tons of little ups and downs everywhere.

and they told me that in order to be normal
i have to take medication.
it isn't there to change my mood
but really, keep my moods more controlled.
so that i wouldn't fly off the handle, but i can get mad.
i wont have manic periods where i can't sleep, but i can be happy.
i wont become randomly suicidally depressed, but i can be sad.

i didn't take the medication.
and i wish i would have.

♥