Today I realized
that I am more or less alone.
Not just me of course.
We all are.
no one can feel what we feel when we feel it.
and no one can make us feel a hundred percent better.
We're all alone in this great big world.

but we're all alone... together.

All I ever do it is work.

and sleep

and go to class

and then back to work again.

I really hope all this working and studying pays off someday.

I think I may have stumbled upon the most beautifully written song ever ( Read more... )

Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

So let me think of to word it
Is it too soon to say 'perfect'?
If I could find another thirty minutes somewhere
I'm sure everything would find me
All that's left is just to sing

and I'll have you know I'm scared to death... 

so uh

I turn twenty in a month.

isn't that depressing? 20.

I know what you're thinking "Nicole you sounds like you're turning 40"

No.

20 is old. I can't think "I'm only a teenager."
every time I make a stupid decision.

noone can make excuses for me and my stupid actions "Julie give her a break... she's just a kid..."

I'm old. old. old.

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There is something really beautiful about loneliness I just can't place my finger on what.

I was just thinking about where I was this time last year
and I am so amazed at the changes I've made and how much I've grown up
This sounds lame, but really I'm so different now.
I won't give him the credit and say that he broke my heart...
but I was pretty depressed, sleeping all day, not eating, lame, depressed.
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