So I've been doing my best to move on with my life and except that I cant get Jill back no matter what I do. She has a boyfriend now. Well its one of her ex's Mikey. Guy she kissed a few times when we were together. Guess I should have seen that coming. Anyhow I know shes moved on and doesnt care for me as much as I care for her otherwise she ( Read more... )

I've kinda stopped writing on here. I just can't take thinking about her all the time and every time I'm on here I think about her more then I already am. I mean I still for months now, haven't had a day go by without thinking about her. I'm trying to avoid staying home alone cause all I do is think about her when I'm alone. I've been hanging out ( Read more... )

I still cant really bring myself to talk about what happened today. I'm still really upset about it. I went out to balboa park with a few friends trying to clear my head but I still couldnt stop thinking about her. So I had a few friends over tonight trying to distract myself from thinking about it. It didnt work but it helped a little. Then she ( Read more... )

I just talked to Jill at the Lake. She just text me. I'm trying to stop crying. I hate this. I can't even type right now. This is to much for me to take.

Well Jill is already done trying to work this out with me. I really didn't think my chance to make things better was going to be so short. I don't know what to do now. My emotions have been messed with so much. I was so happy with the fact that me and her were talking and within a day it's over. I guess she just doesn't want this. I mean I ( Read more... )

So I think I might have been coming on to strong. I text Jill this morning but she never said anything back and I haven't heard from her today. I could just be over thinking it which I probably am. I guess I was just hoping to hear from her today since I've wanted to hear her voice all day. I gotta slow down I guess cause she doesn't feel the same ( Read more... )

I talked to Jill today in person. It was really nice to see her and spend sometime with her. I really never thought I was going to be given that chance again. I'm pretty nervous about everything between me and her but happy as well. I just want to be able to have a good time with her and treat her more the way I should have while we were together. ( Read more... )

Another day without you here ( Read more... )

I went threw a lot of my thing's today. Cleaned out the mustang since it's running again and I'm having the body fixed. Found thing's that belonged to Jill and letters from her as well. Been throwing away things that she gave me or remind me a lot lately cause I keep finding them all over. Trying my best to not think about her but she still is in ( Read more... )

Time goes by, I just try ( Read more... )