ok so i'm finally posting about monday night, i swear it was the best night of my life, just everything went so right...
so we met at rancho, first he sat me down outside of experience coffee, and told me, "i have something for you" and pulled out a book and said,"you write your dreams in here, day or night dreams" then he pulls out a note saying somethings along the lines of "baby, you are everything to me, i want to give you my heart and soul, so inside of the box im about to give you is something to represent my heart and soul, to show just how much i love you, even though our love will continue to grow" and he gives me a black box, i open it and find this cute heart pin that lights up red, as if it were beating, he told me to hold it close to my heart whenever i missed him, then he says"thats not all" and removed the paper that was under the heart pin in the box, and it's a necklace, just the quick glance i had at it made me realize that i knew it was something very special, he puts it around my neck and tells me, "i've had this necklace since i was 16, this is my soul, never take it off or let your parents see it, and whatever you do, do not lose it" and i say,"how could i lost a gif from someone so special?" and he smiles at me and kisses me on the lips, and he says, "i love you baby" and i tell him that i love him too, more than he knows, so then we go buy the tickets for the movie, white noise, i paid of course, then we were just wandering around rancho for a bit, then i said, "i dont feel comfortable hanging out here right now, lets go over behind ground zero" so we cross the street and go over to the side of ground zero and chill there for a while, and i told him about the dream that i had, and he told me he had a dream about me too, than we just held each other for a while and kissed a few times, i was just so happy to be in his arms, by then it was 5:04, the movie started at 5:20, so we headed over to the theater, when we got there, IT WAS COMPLETELY EMPTY!!! we were the only ones in there the whole time, it was great, so we kissed, cuddled, and all that jazz, watched the movie, somewhere in the middle, i started crying when he was kissing me, he asked me whut was wrong, and i said "i've never been so happy in my entire life" and he wiped the tears away and continued to kiss me, at the end of the movie, he looks me in the eye and tells me, "i need to tell you something, the doctor called me at work yesterday, and told me he needed to see me immediately, so i headed down there, and he said that it was about my cancer study results, right then i tensed up, he told me that i was cancer free! the cyst they had removed self abrupted a half hour after they'd removoed it, and it was cancerous, so they removed it just in time" right when he finished, i smiled and we kissed, both of us crying, he kissed me long,hard and passionately, we both had tears running down our faces at this point, it felt great to know that he was alright, now he just has to recover from the physical pain, so we left a bit after to go leave him at his bus stop, then i headed back to rancho and called my mom to pick me up, i was so happy that night
yesterday
i missed him so much, i cried almost the whole day
today
i had a total breakdown during history, my teacher let me go outside to let it out, ms.salo rocks, but it wasn't enough, i came home and cried and cried and cried, i finally got a call from him, and he's in a little bit of pain, but he's alright, i told him my sister wanted to meet him, and he told me to arrange it, the most important part, was when he told me that he loved me and wasn't going to let anything separate us, then i had to go cuz my dad was bitching
so heres the pictures
that was after the movie, you can really see the tears
mah shirt nigga
god damn he's perfect
all i took off of the shirt
if you didn't read that, i suggest you do, it was the best thing thats happend to me since i met him...