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[thoughtsbetween]

I'm depressing. Read that however you like. An adolescent feeling is creeping back into my gut. I hate it. You guys probably all know what I'm talking about - that awful sinking, drowning sensation. The one that lets you fade into yourself so far that the things you see aren't even part of your reality. I felt that a lot in high school and I

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[vickymort]

I don't think anyone thinks of themself as others think of them. If they did, then you would never even consider refering to yourself as a 'mess' or anything else even close to so negative (I know, you don't want praise, so that's my attempt at being sneaky and roundabout. I apologize; it couldn't be helped). I don't know why, but I think the whole self-perception thing is pretty skewed for most people (myself included, but I won't go into that here). Thinking does suck. But what would we do without it? Aside from be happy, that is.

As for Amy.... I'm all for the rushing of the house idea. It seems so much more civilized than picking up the telephone. I miss her.

[thoughtsbetween]

Ha ha, you're the sneakiest! Self-perception is like a fun-house of mirrors. No matter how you look at yourself, you're going to appear hideously disproportionate and nothing like yourself.

Would you like to organize this rush on Amy's maison avec moi? And can you bring a pitchfork? I'll carry the torch. Eh...I'm not suggesting I 'carry a torch' for Amy. Damned cliches, wrecking English...

[scarytales]

Ha. Regarding the first paragraph, welcome to my constand state of being.

As for everything else, no, I see myself different from the way others see me. Or at least how they claim to see me. But I know that I am right and everyone else is using false flattery because they don't want to seem rude.

Amy...who's that? Heh. She hasn't responded to any e-mail I have sent her about anything.

[thoughtsbetween]

You really feel like that all the time? Sorry to hear it, Jessie. Is there anything that people can do that helps relieve that feeling?

Jess, we really love you. If you're talking about physical appearance (because I know that's something you think about), I've always thought you looked good. You're pretty to begin with, and you let your personality through, even when you're super quiet. That's an awesome quality.

We're gonna have to teach that Amy a lesson.

[kry_86]

I think we all have distorted views of ourselfs. I think that may be part of the way we were built. Some people are more arrogant than they think and chalk it up to having confidence, some focus on outter beauty and miss the inner. My favourite qote from Michale Caine (when he was playing a real life villian, I can;t think of who) is : no man is an enemy to himself. In all honesty do you think Hiter, Stalin and countless others actually think they did were evil, or did they think they were creating a better world? I just saw the movie Serenity and it played with that. Essencialy the "good guys" are renegades, who loot and plunder because they are outlaws who fight/fought the establishment, and lost the war. In the film the "bad guy" does horibble things like murder and distroy planets, because he never knew that although he was killing to create a better world, the establishment lied and their experiement failed to create a better world. I've bathered on for too long on this

[thoughtsbetween]

Good point. I like how you took the whole self-perception thing in a different direction. I was looking at it from the "I think less of myself" standpoint and you looked at it in the "I'm not a monster" way. Very nice. Serenity was a fun movie, and you clearly took everything from it that you could. Question: What do you think would happen if society started to humanize the 'monsters'? Would law struggle to keep its power?

What do you think we should do about Amy? Have everyone call her on the same day? Show up at her house and not leave? I think we HAVE to do something.

P.S. I don't drink coffee. But that can't be a deterrent. When are you free?

[kry_86]

Amy first... I called her around Christmas, so she'll answer the phone. So perhaps a phone call is all we need to do... or storm her house

[nowithink]

oww my brain hurts...
And I did see Serenity! Very good movie!

And in regards to if I know myself better than other people know me...from being with Chad I've noticed that I have been so used to getting to know myself, that it's hard to explain or share myself with another person. I've been friends with Ashley since I was 3 and she knows me a hell lot more than I know myself, and vica-versa. It's weird isn't it?

And I saw Amy this summer when she was at work and we had a brief chat. I like our chats Jodi-kins. And now that I have more time on my hands...ahem...I will call and harrass your ass to get together! Boo ya! I need more girl talks! I'm stuck with Chad all the time! haha kidding

[kry_86]

Hey, I think we need to get together as I have time on my hands too!

[nowithink]

you are absolutely right sugar cube!!! Expect a call from...Ms.Cavallin ooooooooh! We shall sit and chat with tea or hot chocolate..mmm hot chocolate....*drools*

[kry_86]

or coffee... you forget my addiction to caffeine.