but its time to die, you're worth more dead
yeah so last night was fun. on the way back from justins i was talking to ashley and her mom.. justin called like 10 minutes after we left and wanted to know if i could see him tomorrow. couldn't, cuz we went shopping today, so i don't care haha. but yeah i was talking to ashley and her mom and i said "i bet you both ANYTHING he calls me tonight at about 2AM drunk off his ass and wanting to talk to me" sure enough..
me and ashley were about to fall asleep and kelly called us.. she got her new car!! a cavalier.. very nice. so we went for a drive.. through bellingham, the corner of woonsocket, then through wrentham and back to ashley's. good times. haha. we didnt get home til like 12, so me and ashley popped in Napoleon Dynamite and i fell asleep in like the first 5 minutes of the movie.
1:45 AM on the dot.. my phone starts ringing. it was justin. i was like OH I WAS SO RIGHT. haha. but me and him talked til 3am. he was drunk and at first he was still at his friends house, his friends kept coming in and saying everyone had to leave and he kept yelling at them "WILL YOU GO THE FUCK AWAY IM TRYING TO HAVE AN EMOTIONAL CONVERSATION WITH THIS GIRL I LIKE!!!!" haha. but yes. our "emotional conversation". we talked about friday night.. "you know i'm not just using you right?" me: i know. "i really do like you jacqui, i've always liked you, and i was really upset when you told me that you don't like me a couple weeks ago. i'm not using you i promise thats not how it is." there was a lot more to the conversation but im not writing it all. basically him joking saying that he doesnt like talking to me when hes drunk because he always ends up telling me how he feels about me. haha. but it was a good conversation. i suppose. haha. i think he told me he loves me at least like 8234987234 times. interesting.
but yeah so today this morning i woke up to diane and ashley. we went to the mall, and i had a wicked anxiety attack because i got stuck in a dress in hot topic. i was shaking and like convulsing uncontrollably and breathing heavy and sweating and i was pale as all fuck. i mean when i put the dress on it went on fine!!! but it had this strap that goes right under the boobs of the dress and apparantly it didnt like stretch or anything cuz i COULD NOT GET IT BACK OVER MY BOOBS WHEN I TRIED GETTING IT OFF. i could hear it like RIPPING as i tried getting it off but it wouldnt come off. so i put my jeans on underneath it and had ashley come in and get it off me and it took us like 10 minutes and the guy was like "is everything okay in there" and me and ashley were like yeah were fine i just got it stuck lmfao. im such an idiot. but i had a wicked anxiety attack, i thought i was trapped in that little room and that dress for like ever. i dont know why. like i said. idiot.
but yeah. im going to Aly's in a few with Alex :D yay.
work tomorrow though. blahhhhh. cell will be on. goodbye loves.
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