fanmix: HP, Remus Lupin/Lily (Evans) Potter, it's more than that.
INTRO:
Let's play a game, let's say that Remus and Lily are friends. Let's say they spend about the same amount of time in the library at generally the same time of the day in somewhat the same area and there's a whole thing with book sharing and comfortableness and common ground as they both have at least a bit of Muggle in them and friendship yes. The only thing they really just can't seem to agree on is Remus' choice of friends. Not her, mind, because she's a perfectly good friend but those other friends of his. She just absolutely does not understand why someone like Remus -- quiet and intelligent and nice -- would hang about with the likes of James Potter and she tells him as much as often as she possibly can. He, of course, can't explain it -- James is just his friend. He doesn't approve of some of James' activities (ie, vicious bullying) but, you know, what's a guy to do? It's not like he can really control him and, really, even if maybe he could he wouldn't because he needs friends. He likes people to like him and especially James and Sirius and Peter because they've got that whole Marauder thing and whatnot.
Ahem. But he does like her. Very much so. She's pretty and clever and perhaps she even smells nice, all girlish and lovely. He likes to spend time with her and is rather calmed by her presence as she has not, at this point, tried to convince him to do anything that might get him killed and/or expelled. He tries to disarm as many explosive situations involving James and Sirius and Peter as he can without actually looking like he is because he doesn't want to rock the boat with them but wants her happy all the same. (1) Yes. And let's say that she forces him into agreeing to write letters and phone while they're out of school for holidays on the grounds that perhaps enough interaction with someone who isn't as entirely mentally stunted as his so-called friends would do him some good and also because she just rather likes him. And maybe he does write and phone and maybe he doesn't but he thinks about her constantly either way because she's wonderful. (2)
And at school it's even worse because they're very close and she's very pretty and he is utterly infatuated with every aspect of her. (3) But (!!) he's afraid to tell her that he likes her because she might not like him in return and, even if she did, which he highly doubts, he would have to tell her about the whole "I turn into a rabid beast every full moon" thing eventually which she might be all right with but, no, mostly he's sure that she'd just run screaming and never speak to him again. (4) Plus there's the fact that James has been mooning over her for years. And friends don't do that to friends.
So he doesn't. Tell her, I mean. (8) And then, even after all the years of despising James' supremely twatish ways, she ends up with him anyway. (9) Or maybe he does tell her. Maybe he does. Maybe he takes the risk (5) and lays all his cards out on the table (6) and maybe even kisses her and "Oh, Remus. You know how much I adore you but..." (7) And then she still ends up with James in the end. (9) And CRUSHED. And SADNESS. And ANGST. And REGRET. (10) And he tries to be happy for them or at least pretend he is but there's always still always that niggling voice in the back of his head telling him all about what could have been. (11) And then she dies. And he doesn't. The end. No matter how you slice it. (12)
The title is from the second track -- my favorite. The whole thing was inspired by too many listens to "Lily Two" -- damn that song. All tracks are mp3. Feel free to leave comments as I adore them. ;) And, uh... thank you for looking, I hope you enjoy it. ♥
MUSICA & ART:
01. Matt Pond PA, "Lily Two"
look at the sun, how it glows in a million waves/lily, there are just as many ways/at the top of your voice, there is no doing wrong, i swear/lily, you be just who you are/southern skies/lily, you're connected to the stars and to the world tonight/the night is fair/lily, it can promise that the next day there'll be so much there
02. The Lucksmiths, "Guess How Much I Love You"
you know i'm thinking of you/in the bookstore, in the laundromat/guess how much i love you/much more, more than that/guess how much i love you/more than that/here's me/here's you/draw a line between the two/this is cartography for beginners/on a map the gap's three fingers/but it's more than that/it's more than that
03. Death Cab for Cutie, "Lightness"
there's a tear in the fabric/of your favorite dress/and i'm sneaking glances/looking for the patterns in static/they start to make sense the longer i'm at it/ivory lines lead/oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho/your heart is a river that flows from your chest/through every organ/your brain is the dam/and i am the fish who can't reach the cord/ivory lines lead/oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho/oh, instincts are misleading/you shouldn't think what you're feeling/they don't tell you what you know you should want/ivory lines lead/oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho
04. Rogue Wave, "Love's Lost Guarantee"
you can paint over any mistake/but you can't remove the original fake/then you go for your one shot/to where you are/to where you are/oh, what you need/some guarantee/oh, what you need/some guarantee/oh, what you need/some guarantee, no/oh, what you need/it's a guarantee/oh, what you need/some guarantee, no/oh, what you need/it's a guarantee
05. Bell X1, "Tongue"
i need to feel whole/i need to feel young again/i need to be bold/and start using my tongue again/they can laugh as they cry/they can cut till i bleed/but i ain't losing/cos this one's for me
06. Eagle*Seagull, "Death Could Be at the Door"
oh, but let's get drunk and forget ourselves/it's like you say, death could be at the door/here we are now/and i have no time to love anymore/if you touch me/i'll touch you too/you know i would/i would/if i touched you, i would
07. Swearing at Motorists, "Northern Line"
find myself down on the northern line/thoughts in my head/are yours, not mine/closing my eyes/i replay the scene/i think what you say/is not what you mean/don't like the way that it's/come and gone/don't want your life/played out in stereo/don't want/your life/played out/in stereo/we hide away, i know/it's a shame/i know, it's a shame/i can't decide/if i've made up my mind/or if/i'm just losing it/still no surprise/the sun fills my eyes/last night becomes this morning/last night/becomes/this morning
08. Travis, "Writing to Reach You"
every day i wake up and it's sunday/whatever's in my eye won't go away/the radio is playing all the usual/and what's a wonderwall anyway?/because my inside is outside/my right side's on my left side/cause i'm writing to reach you now but/i might never reach you/only want to teach you/about you/but that's not you
09. The Killers, "Mr Brightside"
i'm coming out of my cage/and i've been doing just fine/gotta gotta gotta be down/because i want it all/it started out with a kiss/how did it end up like this?/it was only a kiss, it was only a kiss/now i'm falling asleep/and she's calling a cab/while he's having a smoke/and she's taking a drag/now they're going to bed/and my stomach is sick/and it's all in my head/but she's touching his chest/now, he takes off her dress/now, let me go/cause i just can't look it's killing me/and taking control
10. Man Man, "Van Helsing Boombox"
i wanna sleep for weeks, like a dog, at her feet/even though i know it won't work out in the long run/so i burn down the walls/breathe like a shadow/those arms i once knew, hold me til i go/i learn how to speak defeated language/i fall in the street as i howl at the moon/when anything that's anything becomes nothing/that's everything/and nothing is the only thing you ever seem to have
11. Architecture in Helsinki, "Souvenirs"
have we missed an opportunity?/and the trees lean to lend, can I fold you in fourteen ways to depend not defend?
12. Patrick Wolf, "Empress"
empress of this glorious feeling/your palace above me/i journey to give me/until you found power/i thought we were always us/us forever, this fire forever/i journey through forest and concrete/i never stop, never sleep, without you far/sweet fire coming through/i didn't feel you slip away into the night/to hunt the crown and the glory/but i saw it all/how could i have let you slip right from these arms that hunt for you?/how could i have let you slip right from me into that dark lagoon?/my empress, my empress/i'm coming down for you
zip file @ mu
RESOURCES:
- Images are stock.
- Textures from tre-xture.
- Fonts used: "VTCorona" (6pt, 14pt).
Let's play a game, let's say that Remus and Lily are friends. Let's say they spend about the same amount of time in the library at generally the same time of the day in somewhat the same area and there's a whole thing with book sharing and comfortableness and common ground as they both have at least a bit of Muggle in them and friendship yes. The only thing they really just can't seem to agree on is Remus' choice of friends. Not her, mind, because she's a perfectly good friend but those other friends of his. She just absolutely does not understand why someone like Remus -- quiet and intelligent and nice -- would hang about with the likes of James Potter and she tells him as much as often as she possibly can. He, of course, can't explain it -- James is just his friend. He doesn't approve of some of James' activities (ie, vicious bullying) but, you know, what's a guy to do? It's not like he can really control him and, really, even if maybe he could he wouldn't because he needs friends. He likes people to like him and especially James and Sirius and Peter because they've got that whole Marauder thing and whatnot.
Ahem. But he does like her. Very much so. She's pretty and clever and perhaps she even smells nice, all girlish and lovely. He likes to spend time with her and is rather calmed by her presence as she has not, at this point, tried to convince him to do anything that might get him killed and/or expelled. He tries to disarm as many explosive situations involving James and Sirius and Peter as he can without actually looking like he is because he doesn't want to rock the boat with them but wants her happy all the same. (1) Yes. And let's say that she forces him into agreeing to write letters and phone while they're out of school for holidays on the grounds that perhaps enough interaction with someone who isn't as entirely mentally stunted as his so-called friends would do him some good and also because she just rather likes him. And maybe he does write and phone and maybe he doesn't but he thinks about her constantly either way because she's wonderful. (2)
And at school it's even worse because they're very close and she's very pretty and he is utterly infatuated with every aspect of her. (3) But (!!) he's afraid to tell her that he likes her because she might not like him in return and, even if she did, which he highly doubts, he would have to tell her about the whole "I turn into a rabid beast every full moon" thing eventually which she might be all right with but, no, mostly he's sure that she'd just run screaming and never speak to him again. (4) Plus there's the fact that James has been mooning over her for years. And friends don't do that to friends.
So he doesn't. Tell her, I mean. (8) And then, even after all the years of despising James' supremely twatish ways, she ends up with him anyway. (9) Or maybe he does tell her. Maybe he does. Maybe he takes the risk (5) and lays all his cards out on the table (6) and maybe even kisses her and "Oh, Remus. You know how much I adore you but..." (7) And then she still ends up with James in the end. (9) And CRUSHED. And SADNESS. And ANGST. And REGRET. (10) And he tries to be happy for them or at least pretend he is but there's always still always that niggling voice in the back of his head telling him all about what could have been. (11) And then she dies. And he doesn't. The end. No matter how you slice it. (12)
The title is from the second track -- my favorite. The whole thing was inspired by too many listens to "Lily Two" -- damn that song. All tracks are mp3. Feel free to leave comments as I adore them. ;) And, uh... thank you for looking, I hope you enjoy it. ♥
MUSICA & ART:
01. Matt Pond PA, "Lily Two"
look at the sun, how it glows in a million waves/lily, there are just as many ways/at the top of your voice, there is no doing wrong, i swear/lily, you be just who you are/southern skies/lily, you're connected to the stars and to the world tonight/the night is fair/lily, it can promise that the next day there'll be so much there
02. The Lucksmiths, "Guess How Much I Love You"
you know i'm thinking of you/in the bookstore, in the laundromat/guess how much i love you/much more, more than that/guess how much i love you/more than that/here's me/here's you/draw a line between the two/this is cartography for beginners/on a map the gap's three fingers/but it's more than that/it's more than that
03. Death Cab for Cutie, "Lightness"
there's a tear in the fabric/of your favorite dress/and i'm sneaking glances/looking for the patterns in static/they start to make sense the longer i'm at it/ivory lines lead/oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho/your heart is a river that flows from your chest/through every organ/your brain is the dam/and i am the fish who can't reach the cord/ivory lines lead/oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho/oh, instincts are misleading/you shouldn't think what you're feeling/they don't tell you what you know you should want/ivory lines lead/oo wha-ho, oo wha-ho
04. Rogue Wave, "Love's Lost Guarantee"
you can paint over any mistake/but you can't remove the original fake/then you go for your one shot/to where you are/to where you are/oh, what you need/some guarantee/oh, what you need/some guarantee/oh, what you need/some guarantee, no/oh, what you need/it's a guarantee/oh, what you need/some guarantee, no/oh, what you need/it's a guarantee
05. Bell X1, "Tongue"
i need to feel whole/i need to feel young again/i need to be bold/and start using my tongue again/they can laugh as they cry/they can cut till i bleed/but i ain't losing/cos this one's for me
06. Eagle*Seagull, "Death Could Be at the Door"
oh, but let's get drunk and forget ourselves/it's like you say, death could be at the door/here we are now/and i have no time to love anymore/if you touch me/i'll touch you too/you know i would/i would/if i touched you, i would
07. Swearing at Motorists, "Northern Line"
find myself down on the northern line/thoughts in my head/are yours, not mine/closing my eyes/i replay the scene/i think what you say/is not what you mean/don't like the way that it's/come and gone/don't want your life/played out in stereo/don't want/your life/played out/in stereo/we hide away, i know/it's a shame/i know, it's a shame/i can't decide/if i've made up my mind/or if/i'm just losing it/still no surprise/the sun fills my eyes/last night becomes this morning/last night/becomes/this morning
08. Travis, "Writing to Reach You"
every day i wake up and it's sunday/whatever's in my eye won't go away/the radio is playing all the usual/and what's a wonderwall anyway?/because my inside is outside/my right side's on my left side/cause i'm writing to reach you now but/i might never reach you/only want to teach you/about you/but that's not you
09. The Killers, "Mr Brightside"
i'm coming out of my cage/and i've been doing just fine/gotta gotta gotta be down/because i want it all/it started out with a kiss/how did it end up like this?/it was only a kiss, it was only a kiss/now i'm falling asleep/and she's calling a cab/while he's having a smoke/and she's taking a drag/now they're going to bed/and my stomach is sick/and it's all in my head/but she's touching his chest/now, he takes off her dress/now, let me go/cause i just can't look it's killing me/and taking control
10. Man Man, "Van Helsing Boombox"
i wanna sleep for weeks, like a dog, at her feet/even though i know it won't work out in the long run/so i burn down the walls/breathe like a shadow/those arms i once knew, hold me til i go/i learn how to speak defeated language/i fall in the street as i howl at the moon/when anything that's anything becomes nothing/that's everything/and nothing is the only thing you ever seem to have
11. Architecture in Helsinki, "Souvenirs"
have we missed an opportunity?/and the trees lean to lend, can I fold you in fourteen ways to depend not defend?
12. Patrick Wolf, "Empress"
empress of this glorious feeling/your palace above me/i journey to give me/until you found power/i thought we were always us/us forever, this fire forever/i journey through forest and concrete/i never stop, never sleep, without you far/sweet fire coming through/i didn't feel you slip away into the night/to hunt the crown and the glory/but i saw it all/how could i have let you slip right from these arms that hunt for you?/how could i have let you slip right from me into that dark lagoon?/my empress, my empress/i'm coming down for you
zip file @ mu
RESOURCES:
- Images are stock.
- Textures from tre-xture.
- Fonts used: "VTCorona" (6pt, 14pt).