i am a pessimistic bastard.

[throughthesmile]

yeah, so Sunday was ludachris. not often can you use a word so cool. although yesturda-far from cool

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[im_uh_waste]

if you're gonna have fun with "cool words," make sure you can spell them ;D

[throughthesmile]

i really do like kids. just some of them are annoying to me. my little sister Sydney for example. i love that girl to death. she's not quite old enough to walk (7 months), and crys every time we have her try to crawl. she likes to play with my beads. she's the cutest baby.
and i think this sunday was just particularly hard for me. it's strangely out of charecter, but i just couldn't stand these kids. one of them for example: mocked everything i did. which made me laugh, and then annoyed. i love babysitting even. and yeah, i do plan on having kids. i just wrote this under the stress of my mom and sisters fighting. my mom was saying she was going to move out because she couldn't stand my other sister, tara. the way my mom chooses to raise us makes me think she denys having us at all.

i dunno. i want to be a good parent too.
it's just easier to say i won't.

i know one day i will.
i do love kids.
just a bad day.

[__suckerxl0ve]

HAHAHAHA!