still 
so 
sad

I'm sort of tired, sort of confused, sort of angry, sort of hurt, sort of pleased, sort of disappointed, sort of lonely ( Read more... )

What did i expect?  Too much? Too little? Did my expectation cause the reality?  I am so overwhelmed by my emotions.  How does it happen that I come to care so much for these people?  I don't understand .  I try to support them in their decisions, encourage them to learn and grow,  but then it breaks my heart to see the difficulties and wrong turns ( Read more... )

Well, we've been househunting, and found a lovely house in our old city. Sarah and John are very pleased with the house, we all are, actually. It's very close to some of her friends, and well, just nice ( Read more... )

My dearest Sarah ( Read more... )

So I have the tea, and I have the chocolate, I have the time, and the screen in front of me...

I am at a loss, almost, as to how I can express my feelings about things that are going on right now, and in the last month. It's been like watching a plane crash, or maybe like a train wreck,  knowing that the cars behind aren't stopping, and will ( Read more... )

how much do we give and how much do we take ?

so much to say, nowhere to start or finish, because life is a giant mobius stip, no clearcut beginnings or ends, just a fineline to follow.

Hmmm, perhaps the lines of communication were not as open as we thought. They went down in a bit of a storm, but I believe that the weather is clearing. I have a hope that the truce called will hold, with agreement from both parties ( Read more... )

Wow. I'm flabbergasted. and pleased. and somewhat speechless ( Read more... )

 My apologies to anyone who found my previous entry overly pessimistic, it's possible that I was reflecting on a specific situation  after all.... an old, somewhat unfinished one.... actually, I know i was, and also thinking of relationships that have suffered major , big time breaks, where there has been a lot of time in between the massive ( Read more... )