1. im very jelous and insecure
2. to me, the worst feeling in the world is when someone means everything to you, and you mean nothing to them anymore.
3. I have a hard time getting close to someone, or trusting them.
4. I dont take critizism or rejection well.
5. I've been dancing since i was 3.
6. I can wiggle my ears (but dont ask, you're never gonna ( Read more... )

I am at a loss for words here.

I hate to break this to you but being a coward is not a legitimate career.

mmKAY. so i went to the beach with LAURIANA for my bday.
and it was fun.  heh.
we met some boooys. 
my other bitches kayte, sam, and heather were SUPPOSED to join us..

but then they didnt :-/

but thats okay i still love them.

( dood mad, what if they saw the ash tray? )

i hate feeling like this.. but what can ya do?
i want to sleep forever.
but i can't
so I guess I'll just sleep until i have to go to dance.
wtf.

hmm.  today is my birthday. 
i think im getting a new cell phone.
yesterday lauren came home with me and we went to backbooth and saw reckless dream, amity, hollywood ending, and some other bands.. i think.
i got to see my silly kayte and anna and a whole bunch of people that i looove.
and ivan <3 =]
i smoked lots of ciggarettes.
it was fun.


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so i was told my lj holds more drama then a whole season of dawsons creek.
psssh. dawsons a fag.

i just want to stay home tomorow, watch the notebook a zillion times, and cry all day.

okay, maybe im the fag.

i feel like im going crazy.
i dont like this feeling.

i am so disgusted by all of this.

who the fuck do you think you are?
i hope she was good.
you were a waste of my fucking time.  i knew you werent going to change.

you picked the wrong fucking girl to piss off <3

=]

YOU COULD ATLEAST FUCKING PRETEND LIKE YOU CARE.
PRETEND LIKE THIS HURT YOU AS MUCH AS IT DID ME.

this is so fucked up.

Im Silly...

yeah i am...

Oh haha... Ivan loves me.

hi kiddies.
heres my update.

everything sucks. =]

and i fucking miss kayte shit mother fucker cock eyed  bitch.
i wish she would hang with me.
so we could hang.
and such.

i stayed home from school today... and walked my dog.
it was pretty sweet.

and will someone please define boyfriend?
maybe my expectations are just too high.

oh well

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