Blegh...
I really need to either a) open up enough to current local friends, or make some new ones, because I really need someone to talk to about the difficult shit in my life.
I think that after I moved to college station, I put up a massive wall to try to protect myself from lordknowswhat. I don't really open up because I haven't felt like anyone would want to listen. Perhaps this is because I've always been the listener, and friends in the past didn't want to take the time to hear me out. Plus, there's that big racial divide that pretty much ensures that a lot of my friends, current and past, would not relate to me.
Now, I have made acquaintences at school, and it remains as such because of the distance. Nevermind the fact that a lot of the time, I don't feel that it's either appropriate or worth it to try and talk to K about a lot, especially since my bullshit is pretty much just that...bullshit.
I geuss I could just take up seriously talking to Mel. The way he pays attention almost seems geniune at times. Too bad he can't really respond.
Yeah, I've been depressed. Can you tell? Hah!!
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