nostalgia
and all i got is one shizty amount of white wine, WHERE THE HELL IS THE RED WINe!
my feelings have been way too intense, duh because of it. yesterday my dad made me cry sooooo hard and i rarely let that happen. I know hes a big asshole, and i try not to let what he says or does affect me, but yesterday he broke down my barriers and shattered my emotions. i was doing so well too...BAH! >_<
i think that when it comes down to it, i just havent been...
and thats the real problem here. im letting a lot of thoughts feed my head with emotions that inevitably blow away with the wind, it sucks. i dont know, i really just really need to fix my borders, and re-establish the great wall that encases my noodle brain. ahhhh..::sigh::
live journal makes me feel at ease, i dont really know if anyone is reading along or checking out my pictures, songs or quotes, but its so essential for me to go back and read this, it really is.
::sigh::
in my communications class, we got this quiz back and i got a 58%. i felt bad until people around me scored lower, and i was like, HAH! (in my head) i realized that lately communication has become the weakest part of my persona, theres a lot about it i never looked too deep into, but that class can help me better understand complex situations, and form better ways of manipulating myself through those situations. I realize i dont think enough about things before i say them, for the most part all that i say has good intention, but my choice of words are so loose that they fail to represent what im honestly feeling inside.
AH!!! i think im going to go outside and yell at the top of my lungs, ya, hows that for communication!
