so i'm always wondering how this could have all happened with humans taking over the world and how it could be so unchecked in fucking everything up and i feel like it's because of people like me who passively accept that this is the way things are and people who are aware enough to see how fucked up it is, we are nature trying to save itself, ( Read more... )

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dear sun,

you know i love you, but do you know that it is winter? how can i properly hibernate when it is so sultry outside? i have all the necessities for a winter wallow: dawn and welcome nowhere, much to escape from, no close friends, too much time, a badly broken heart, and a stolid disposition, but it is all made to be so silly when you are ( Read more... )

how can i possibly explain? there is so much. things fall apart, and they come together again. everything sounds good. talking is like chewing. if we are breathing we are conversing.

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everything is beautiful and hard to take. i want to make noise.

i'm going fucking insane. one minute it's "okay, i can do this, i am strong, and independent and i can do this, i can," but my room is so cold with only my body and i realize i have been stoned all day and drunk all night for a week now and the next minute it's "FUCK FUCK FCUK WHAT THE FUCK" and the next minute i'm completely shut off and i can't ( Read more... )

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phone pix.

This is my new apartment

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sensitive plant from sean michaels on Vimeo.

not even knowing what i'm looking for by walking in the dark
my life is just saying one thing
"i will find you"

i think i might have found the real live girl friend i always wanted! i dont want to get my hopes up but we have been hanging out almost every day and she never stops saying or doing things that make me go ahh whattt how are you so cool, AND last night we were extremely high and her boyfriend was driving us in this van through middle-of-nowhere ( Read more... )