err i feel so stupid. like this weekend was great. i spent saturday w/ this really amzing guy but the fact is hes just a great guy and i dont want 2 do anything w/ him. hes a good freind and thats it. but i cant ever seem to get that out of my mouth and then right as im abouts 2 he tells me how great i am and all this other stuff. then the gilr ( Read more... )

ok well yha the crazeist thing happend to me 2day and well now that i think baout it im glad i ddi it. it just made me relize although i can think guys are cute i could never really fuck them. juts becuase once i see theri dick itotaly get turned off and im like totaly not feeling anything. then like when i touched it(hand job), i was eww omg icky ( Read more... )

ahh mallory why do you do this 2 me? i cant win with you and i tried being purfect and i never was good enough for you. i swaer ive tried to please you non stop and now im just lying ehre broken cuz you allwyas just say im not good enough. ahhh u make me so crazy sometimes. i told my slef i would waste any tears over you and well im sorry but i ( Read more... )

i cant do naythign any more. i cant stop thinking about her. i cant stop flirting w/ her anymore. i cant stop and nor do i want 2. my realtionships all suck and i know im bound 2 wander the world alone. the only reall realtionship ive held on to w/ all my might is w/ anistasia, heidi(my sisy), mallory, and thats about it. everyone else im freinds w ( Read more... )

their is noly one reason why i am doing this..i want a clean start. i have a journal at xanga.com but for some odd reason im sick of it. im sick of being thought of in only one way. that people have me all figured out and everyhting. lol. god if i cant figure my slef out then who can. right now im in the state of mind where i dont know what to ( Read more... )