Low. It's part of me now.

I've been low cos dad I cannot let you go.

Life was okay a month ago, so don't go.

Im half of you but I guess it won't show.

And I cannot seem to not need to need you

and I can't breathe anymore.

I cannot seem to let myself accept leaving you.

I'm can't breathe anymore

Most people view suicide as the most selfish act, I used to believe that.Giving up or a cry for help, selfish, a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Instead of thinking of a person jumping out the window of a burning building. The people down on the sidewalk, they never felt the flames so will never understand a terror greater than the fear ( Read more... )

Is it over yet?

I fucking hate donald trump and I hope he is brought to justice

There is special providence in the fall of a sparrow.

most beautiful and prevalent line in lit ever

im not great at being aggressively angry. Used to be, in like, high school. Post 212, not so much. Now, when I get angry I cry and find a way to hate myself. But since yesterday Im angry angry. "Big mad". I HATE this.  

Hospice started Wednesday the 3rd. Wondering what the next days, weeks, months look like. 

is this the beginning of the end? i love you and want to keep you, but i feel like you body and your soul is ready to go. I want you free of pain, but I want you here for me. Where does that want begin and where does it end? I'll never be ready.

gradually, then suddenly

It is absolutely maddening to be told you are overqualified for a job that pays 25k more a year than your current job. I'll have to do research on what this actually means.