the world is bullshit. people are bullshit. and i realzied that more today than i ever have.

im done trying.

so fuck you, basically. im mad at you but im not but i should be so i am. everything goign on at once. fuck you for thinking im convenient and here for you to LISTEN when you dont even ask how i am. i lose, right? yea. breast cancer. both sides. this is me now being selfish when im really not..shes not healthy how is this goign to happen, now? 2 ( Read more... )

and this is me trying to breathe for one more minute before igo back to work. no clue how im going to get through this next month without having a breakdown each night. its all school. and all the shit that goes with it. " oh cause everyone is a fuckin napoleon,o ohhh cause everyone is a fuckin napoleon...and the next time that i saw you , you were ( Read more... )

havent updated in a while...deff need to change this picture, i have a hard time looking at my journal and seeing this massive picture of my face. time to not always look so cheerfull. not that im a depressed hag now or anything just no need to be all happy go luck all the time ( Read more... )

and i feel like an asshole.

i miss home. not how you think either. i miss the little things, i miss friends. i miss not having work shoved in my face everyminute and have so much expected of me. i guess that sounds really pathetic. but im sorry im just ready to sit and not have to worry about school and profesors and impressing them and walking on eggshells with them. summer ( Read more... )

i have to say, yoga, was by far the best part of my last few days. it was my first official time besides dance class in hs, which wasnt exactly that exciting,member leash? but yea this was incredible....after shittyness, we were just sitting in the room, with amazing calm music on , with the woman instructor who just spoke so nicely that it made ( Read more... )

ive been learning a lot recently...about myself, about my relationship, friendships, life idk ive just been adjusting to a lot. it isnt so bad here anymore.. and its been a rough few days and i feel like i have accomplished something, myself, not the couple not other people, me. rather proud of that actually. love is probably the most fucked up ( Read more... )

for anyone who cares...my new extension is 7241 :) beginning numbers are hte same ;)