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i'm shaking. holding back tears. tonight was senior night at Grove for the drama ministries. i swear... it's never hurt this much before. they've never been such great friends before.
a tear. one tear. and i'm gone. gone never to return. i see your faces in my mind. my empty mind. my confused mind. my lost mind. i find you. you help me find me. without you where would i be? without your laughs. without your smile. without your presence. without you all. it makes me feel empty. i feel empty. i am empty. you fill a void. what will i do with this hole in my heart. a hole with your names written all over it. graham. graham, you confuse me. i'm confused. you're amazing. you're selfish. you're selfless. i love you. robb. you're an asshole. you're amazing. you're awesome. sarah. you're fantastical. you astound me. your happy presence. your light. your amazing smile and laughter. matt. with your amazing hugs. you tell me it's not over yet. you made me cry more. i love you. you rock. rock on. don't run naked in the snow. lauren. oh my god lauren. you are so effing amazing. you light my world. you bring a smile to my face. i love you. i love you more than anything. my fellow alto. my tied for first favorite alto. you and emily. emily. floods. my eyes do not have enough tears to express how much i will miss you. you said i cannot cry. you're not gone yet. you're right. not yet. pete. oh god pete. my emotions surrounding you are always so confused. i do know that i care about you more than just about anyone in the world. you are my amazing senior friend. the guy who brought a light to my eye for the past two years. and the past four years. you whispered to me. you'll miss me. well pete. i'll miss you too.
what else can i say? i'm loosing it. haha. i'm loosing some of my best friends. they're going away. off. gone. i can't even think about it. it hurts too much. i honestly will be lost without them. oh god. i don't knwo what i'm going to do. what am i going to do?
i need to go cry myself to sleep. it's the only remedy for such sorrow. such sorrow i have only felt once... maybe twice before.
i love you all. i swear if ANY of you leave BEFORE you go off to college, i'll hurt you. i'll REALLY hurt you.
<3 Elise
a tear. one tear. and i'm gone. gone never to return. i see your faces in my mind. my empty mind. my confused mind. my lost mind. i find you. you help me find me. without you where would i be? without your laughs. without your smile. without your presence. without you all. it makes me feel empty. i feel empty. i am empty. you fill a void. what will i do with this hole in my heart. a hole with your names written all over it. graham. graham, you confuse me. i'm confused. you're amazing. you're selfish. you're selfless. i love you. robb. you're an asshole. you're amazing. you're awesome. sarah. you're fantastical. you astound me. your happy presence. your light. your amazing smile and laughter. matt. with your amazing hugs. you tell me it's not over yet. you made me cry more. i love you. you rock. rock on. don't run naked in the snow. lauren. oh my god lauren. you are so effing amazing. you light my world. you bring a smile to my face. i love you. i love you more than anything. my fellow alto. my tied for first favorite alto. you and emily. emily. floods. my eyes do not have enough tears to express how much i will miss you. you said i cannot cry. you're not gone yet. you're right. not yet. pete. oh god pete. my emotions surrounding you are always so confused. i do know that i care about you more than just about anyone in the world. you are my amazing senior friend. the guy who brought a light to my eye for the past two years. and the past four years. you whispered to me. you'll miss me. well pete. i'll miss you too.
what else can i say? i'm loosing it. haha. i'm loosing some of my best friends. they're going away. off. gone. i can't even think about it. it hurts too much. i honestly will be lost without them. oh god. i don't knwo what i'm going to do. what am i going to do?
i need to go cry myself to sleep. it's the only remedy for such sorrow. such sorrow i have only felt once... maybe twice before.
i love you all. i swear if ANY of you leave BEFORE you go off to college, i'll hurt you. i'll REALLY hurt you.
<3 Elise