There are times[long stretches of hours] where I totally hate myself.

There are times[long stretches of hours] where I adore the world and I want to live forever and fucking laugh my ass off.

This evening is the latter.
And I ddi laugh my ass off. For a long time. On the phone with Mia.

Facebook is so god damned funny.

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List of things I am currently dealing with/thinking of as they pop into my head ( Read more... )

I am so pathetically obsessed with my college that I posted a little countdown on my home page to when I go back.

LUCKILY, no one will ever know it's for that event (except you now I guess) because the day I go back coincides with my birthday, so it just gloats a cliched "__ days until my birthday!" instead of "__ days until I go back to the one ( Read more... )

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"For life's not a paragraph, and death I think is no parenthesis."
-ee cummings
As this year is coming  to a close, I am pretty shocked at how much has happened to me and how much I've been through. For God's sake, I am eighteen and still riding the coat tails of my parents in terms of dependence...how the hell do I get out so much?

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Home home home.
Back in the bay.

Home!

It feels empty. I wish more of my friends would get home faster.

I feel kind of empty too.

Pfft. EMO.

It's almost Christmas.

So this is insane but my first term of freshman year of college is almost over. Only ten days left. What the hell is going on here.

Remember how when I was  a senior in high school I used to make angsty teenagey lists of everything I had to do, then I'd cry about it and get all worked up and pretend like I was racked with work and burdens?
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Oh god oh god it is getting effing cold. As of now, it's 9:38 pm and 19 degrees fahrenheit outside. Someone please shoot me. I am never going to make it alive. Never. The Vermont mountains are going to swallow me whole, into their sunken freezing abyss!

And it's not even snowing yet!

I only have two and a half weeks left of this term before I go home ( Read more... )

Look how speedily things have taken off here at college. I already feel comfortable on campus and have a really great group of friends to hang out with, as well as amazing people outside of the group...

I love my classes, and I am doing well in them. The partying is great. The people are sahsahsahWEET. I'm dead serious. This shit is so raw over here ( Read more... )