Wow....for the past two weeks all I've been doing is complaining and moping around...I feel so dumb. I'm sorry everyone. I think I just fucking "woke up".
Sigh. It's so hard to get used to huge changes in your life. I guess in time I'll forget about all of this and move on. For right now I'm hopeful though. There's a lot of things out there that are waiting for me.