I am going through a lot of different phases at once. The "Itis" phase (it's after lunch, and I came to work sleepy so now I'm having a hard time just typing this). The "Job search" phase (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA). I hate to write "ha" or "haha," it has to be long to truly resonate with me. The "Spring Fever/Senioritis" phase. Just a lot of different phases ( Read more... )

So I did it. I am really starting to look into this Chicago thing for real. I'm a little freaked out about it. I'm not really ready to go so far, I think, but I've been on this kick since high school. As I'm sure I've written in here a gajillion times, if I wasn't so chickensh*t I would have applied to the University of Chicago. I really wanted to ( Read more... )

Today, I am not really being a good girl. I am back in bitch mode, in fact. Jealousy is unproductive, people, but that doesn't make it go away. The thing is, it's not just jealousy - I honestly just don't like something about this girl sometimes. Some days, I'm like "No way, I'm just imagining things - she's perfectly cool." But on days like today ( Read more... )

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Looking up quotes for my job, and I came across these nasty gems ( Read more... )

I'm confused about something else, but right now I'm pointlessly job searching. My mom said that if I find something that looks interesting and they interview me, I should just let them know that I won't be able to work until June. And that made me realize that I'm not going to be available to work for another 4 months, nearly 5 because Public ( Read more... )

Starting today, I am trying to re-focus things. I'm tired of being tired and lazy. I'm tired of whining about what a loser I am. Time to just stop being one. First, there's work. After this post, I'm going to actually get some done. I think last week I did a lot of work and I was proud of that, but I could do a lot more. I'm capable, I just need to ( Read more... )

So with Public Allies almost at an end, I'm once again drifting. I'm worrying about my next job  (or lack of a job) and what's going to happen in my life. I think I've been avoiding it, and I probably should have been applying to stuff this whole month. Now, I probably have little chance of getting into something interesting. I'm trying not to ( Read more... )

Right now, I probably have at least 10 things that I could be doing. I'm half doing them, half being crushed under the weight of all this responsibility. I'm not ready. It's scary.

I'm so tired right now. Literally and figuratively. I like my job, I do. I know it sounds like I hate it, but I complain about everything. If I complain about it, it probably means somewhere in my dark complaining heart I love it to death. LOL. But seriously, I feel like I've been put through the wringer with all these crazy "assessment" tests or ( Read more... )