so i'm writing my first paper since school started, and i'm finding it harder than i remembered. it's an english paper, and only 2 pages, but needs to be analytical. sometimes (ha, all the time), it's so much easier to be expository than analytical ( Read more... )

back at school, up early but too late to go to the game after a night of semi-heavy drinking...especially for me. it's really weird to be at school again, and also weird that it feels comfortable. i also really miss andrew and that's another strange emotion, i'll see him soon but it'll never be soon enough ( Read more... )

well i've realized that i like pot again. in extreme moderation though, like 1 or two hits tops, or else i get silent and dumb. but when i'm a good high, it's fun. and it's been a long time since pot has been fun for me ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting in las vegas airport waiting for my incredibly ridiculously delayed flight to l.a. to meet liz and see jess(!) but i'm not able to play the slot machines sitting 50 yards from me (would i really gamble if i were 21? i wonder...). but still i feel like a baller cause i deposited all this money in the bank today, work has treated me ( Read more... )

essential music manipulates my never empty shadow
spray the rain
say a smooth symphony

i'm taking a very short hiatus from chicago, i'm in detroit now with my family, got here last night and i'm leaving tomorrow morning. i spent all day yesterday waiting for and missing buses and waiting for and taking trains, i even went to a prom for my mom's students when i got here last night. i was on 2 hours of sleep and ever so exhausted, and ( Read more... )

this life is so crazy for me. everything i'm doing is something i've never done before - retail work, 9 hour days outside (and i'm tan as a motherfucker), moving into my own apartment (!) with 2 of andrews friends, andrew himself. i'm in love but it's silent and i haven't said it yet except in my head thousands and thousands of times; also i've ( Read more... )

i keep finding myself up at very late hours of the night packing in a panic (ha-ha) because i've been running around the city seeing people and doing everything in preparation. and still i think it's fitting that i've spent every last-night with liz, staying up late and ensuring my exhaustion of tomorrow, but sometimes it just be's like that. ( Read more... )

quarters on the floor
dimes in my purse; i realize:
change is everywhere

this week has brought the onset of my summer vacation and my birthday, both of which are awesome. it also included me losing something i've been meaning to lose for a long time, getting a tattoo(!!), chilling with the boy in chicago, and coming back home to new york for 4 whole weeks of NOTHING TO DO. i love this shit ( Read more... )