i'm supposed to go with my mom soon to look at condos. i should go. but.. i want to write something. for jade. why do i maintain this ridiculous pseudonym? is it for my protection, hers, both, or neither? for once i just want to find something i can be comfortable in turning all out myself out in.

why must my mother get more pathetic with age?
i think she's losing short term memory. and suffering acute loneliness. because clearly loneliness is new in this family. *lies*

and... yeah.

ok, so i'm watching vh1. it's ridiculous. madonna is 47. why is she running around in a hot pink leotard? i feel nasty now. cause she's starting to look... like an old person covering up the fact that she's old ( Read more... )

that's where i am right now. in one of the two beds. not really tired since i convinced myself during the course of the day that i was narcoleptic. kept going out like a light. almost missed the bus in the morning to begin with. which would have been fine, because my flight was an hour later than i somehow managed to believe. whoops. so yeah, mommy ( Read more... )

so... like... i'm in logan. and i'm wearing a brown t-shirt and feeling confused. i'm taking this opportunity to try to find money and stuff. i honestly think that the NSA is the best chance i've got. sure, you have to work for them for 6 years afterwards, but the actual reality of that job is pretty intense. i should at least try, right ( Read more... )

so.. i've been blitzing with her all day.. and we're going to hang out monday night, but she has a date before that.... at least this can't be too much of a serious thing if she plans on being free later in the evening ( Read more... )

i know for a fact that one of her finals is done with today. i bet she'll be leaving soon. she'd hardly want to hang around campus, i somehow feel. i know she doesn't have time for random crap like psychos like me, but i can be optimistic, right? by now she might be legitimately preoccupied with someone wicked cool, anyway ( Read more... )

sooo... the plan of finishing my english final is failing. i feel that i'm writing about identity and the people/characters too much and not basing it enough in the texts ( Read more... )

staring into harry potter's eyes, i began to understand the fundamentals of identity as performance.

it occurred to me that i'm not sure if i dumped her or not. i guess i'll assume i did.