Well, I dunno. Life is...weird. I need to get a new job. which means that I need to get a resume going and all that good stuff. I'm not very good at that. And it's very difficult to do a resume when you only have two jobs to put on it. It's so hard to take those two jobs and prove that damn it, I can do anything put in front of me! I"ve done
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I'm tired of dreading it. I don't care if it's a desk job, I just don't want this crap anymore.
It's true. I guess. I've had enough stupid guy problems that I just...bah. And you know right now I have to wonder. What's love, the one that you can see yourself with kids and all that stuff, or the one that you are instantly comfortable with? Or neither? *sighs*
Thanks. I don't feel like any of that, and I'm more inclined to think I'll be by myself forever. But thank you very much. *huggles*
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I don't blame you and I wouldn't either.
Getting over Chris was easier than Zane, and Chris had asked me to marry him. Same pain, I had just been through it before and could handle it better.
I'm gonna be a pain in the ass and say both. :P Although I would say the instantly comfortable one is a higher priority, but I've personally gotten sick of looking ahead. I want to live now. That's not to say that finding someone you can see yourself in the future with is bad at all- that's why I say both. It's hard since it's so subjective, but does that make a little sense? *huggle*
You are, you really are. And you won't be by yourself forever. The right guy just hasn't come by yet.
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Seth has always been the worst, Brodie made me lose faith and Erik...just never happened so I can't hold that against him. This time I guess I'm most hurt by the knowlege that I let myself do something I normally wouldn't. I'm mad at myself for getting into the situation that hurts me, which is why I never do it in the first place. :P
hehe. Yeah, this is why I"m stuck. You know, usually I've been an in the moment kind of person when it came to relationships. But recently I've been thinking long term. Not sure why. It's just hard because ever since the first time, I've been instantly comfortable with Erik. Hell I spent nights at his house until way late and never once felt sick or anything. Which is weird for me. or was then. :D But yes, it makes sense. :) *huggle*
Thanks. I'm trying to think that. :)
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