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[tigre_effraye]

So I went to my orientation on Wednesday and that went well even though it seemed to take forever. I don't have any clients yet and I have a feeling that my personality may inhibit my chances of getting one. They are looking for quite, reserved, middle aged people, or at least that's the impression I get. The woman coordinator that I met told me

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[razielxsan]

Ok, so I have no CLUE what's up with them disliking you so much, but from what you've told me it sounds like it's just a bunch of junk. It's like my mom not taking an interest in or automatically disliking my girlfriends because I spend less time at home - total bullshit reason to dislike someone. As far as Bruce's grandmother, she obviously has an issue with 'non-believers'. Once more, bullshit reason to dislike someone

[tigre_effraye]

I agree, those reasons are bad reasons to dislike someone. The problem I have is that I know that his mom and grandma aren't bad people, they just have bad opinions of me. Bruce's mom likes me...at least more than she used to. She is a very quite person with many social fears, so for her, telling me how she felt is a sign of opening up, and reaching out. That is why I feel like I can't tell her how hurt I am when constantly told about her negative opinion. Her being able to tell me what she thinks or how she feels is a very big deal for her. Bruce's grandma is definitely more stuck in how she thinks and her actions are much more planned and malicious, but she also has a lot of very good qualities and loves Bruce very much. To me it seems much easier to mentally write off poor opinions from other people because you can say, "well they suck anyways". But, these women are my family now so I don't have the lesiure to think in black and white. I think it makes it harder on me to be disliked by people who I essentially think are great. Baah

[smiling_skeptic]

Nothing is wrong with you. You are completely awesome.

I'm pretty sure that his mother and grandmother would resent any girl in Bruce's life...they are shifting his attention away from the parental units. Mother figures are strange like that when it comes to boys.

I would keep in mind how happy you and Bruce are together with Michael. It's totally worth it, right?

[tigre_effraye]

Thank you so much for your support.
I guess I have to try and not do that with Michael. At least this experience could teach me how not to react when Michael starts dating.

It's definitely worth it to me, but it makes me feel like maybe I'm not enough for Bruce and later he'll find that his mom and grandma were right all along. The hard part is that it makes me second guess whether or not I really did bring Bruce down and keep him from succeeding.

[smiling_skeptic]

Hmmm...have you and Bruce sat down and talked about it? It might be one of those "open lines of communication" things. I believe that that could be a way to avoid resent or worry building out of control. It will not only reassure you but keep the trust strong in your relationship.

[glasseseater]

oh rachel, you radical degenerate non-believer. *hugs*

I'm not going to say anything about bruce's mother or grandmother, because I would probably just get petty and mean, because I am a petty and mean person. But you are a fabulous person who tries her best at everything, so don't give them any thought.

No one raises a child the same and unless you're beating Micheal with a bag of valencia oranges I'm sure you're doing okay.

I told Sean about them thinking you were bringing Bruce down and he gave one of his patented eyebrow raises.

[tigre_effraye]

*hugs* thanks :o)

I thought about beating Michael with valencia oranges, but I settled for clementines. No, but really I agree that it's the big things that matter. I certainly don't think that he will grow up maladjusted because he used a pacifier or was in a swaddle.