Barely Breathing

[tilleybear]

I just want you all to know my life sucks bad right now... I got married! should be good news right? nope, She already want's a seperation... Advice to guys out there, girls don't like lies... even small insignificant crap lies that you say just to make conversation. I lost 2 jobs in a week... I really wan't to die but what's new right, I always

Comments

[urbunnie]

Adam,
I'm so sorry things aren't working out for you right now, and I hope you were mostly speaking in frustration about suicide. It's never the answer. You're not alone in this world and things will get better even though it feels like they won't. If you need to talk please call me or Becca or someone close to you. We have the same numbers we've had for a while or you can call the house. Becca's home for summer. I'm worried about you. Things have a way of working themselves out. Please talk to someone and get help, ok? We've already lost enough Owlers. I care about you and I know lots of other people who do too, even if we don't see you anymore. We think about you. Feel better, ok?
Love Jenica

[meggygirl]

Adam, you and I both know - from experience - that it takes two people to mess up a relationship. You can try to blame yourself as much as you want, because that's what people like you and I do, but in the end it's not all you. Trust me. I tried to blame the end of my last relationship on myself and it was, in a nutshell, awful. Obviously I don't know the situation and it's been ages since we've talked, but I hope you know that I am here for you. My cell number is the same as it was the last time we talked... so please don't hesitate to call me or whatever, okay? I've wanted to call you but I wasn't sure if your number was still the last one you gave me...

[nightowlprinces]

Well Adam...I don't know what to say. I agree with Jenica and Megan and I hope things will get better from where you're at in life. It's always a roller coaster, but there's absolutely no good reason to ever give it up, no matter how bad it gets. If you ever need to talk, you know how to get ahold of me.

[tilleybear]

She has all of my stuff, including my cell phone. I'm living at my dad's house so if you have that phone number you can call that. I spoke of suicide mostly out of frustration yes, but I'm experiencing so much pain right now I can't handle it. I found a bunch of pictures on my dads computer from our wedding and we both seemed so happy... I completly broke down. I miss her so much and am afraid I'm going to loose her forever. I thought I understood what pain was before but I realize now that I had no idea. I wasn't even close to knowing what pain was. Even Kidney stones don't hurt this bad, and let me tell you that those suck. I haven't even been married 6 months yet and this is already happening. I don't even know if pain is the most accurate word for what I'm experiencing. Complete and total devistation is more accurate... maybe, it feels even worse than that though.

[tilleybear]

BTW, no cell phone means no phone numbers... and my memory isn't what it used to be...

[meggygirl]

My cell is a 219 number still, so if your dad is still in that area, it won't be long distance for you. 219-241-9155.