i love hanging out with marissa!

our house is gonna be such a sketchzoid magnet...eeeek!

i have to say that although i know that i'm 18 and i'm still young as fuck, lately i have felt pretty fucking old.

i'm getting ready to graduate from high school which seems like nothing and to alot of people who have done so many things and seen so many things and met so many people it is fucking nothing.

i have loved

i have lost.

i have opened up ( Read more... )

Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
And that unspoken feeling of knowing
Right now is all that matters

i have the feeling that this month/summer is gonna be kinda crazy.

prom
camp auburn
graduation
california
working ALOT
makin the cheeeeeeeeeeeeeese
gettin ready to say goodbye to washington

uhhh yeah so its been sweet.
p.s. thank you to sarah claire and marissa who made 
my weekend pretty fucking sweet i like you girls a hell of a lot

was amazing. one of the most intenesely crazy and awesome shows i've ever been too. it was bittersweet.

hung out with sarah  marissa and claire after and i have to say that i love those girls like WHOA! especially when marissa and i play our bum out song and you have sarah and claire in the back screaming "FUCK YOU BITCH" hahaha i love it!

last night was okay. saw some people i haven't seen in along time. that was sweet. saw some people i didn't want to see, not so sweet but whatever!

west seattle sarah i love you more than you will ever know and i'm glad that you are going to come to my graduation that means SO much to me! june 18th girl!

i'm stoked for tonight, should be fun! i'll ( Read more... )

i'm stoked for this weekend! i'm stoked to hang out with MARISSA! i'm stoked that my weekend is going to last 5 days because tomorrow is senior skip day and then 2 days off for memorial day weekend!

things are lookin good right now!

p.s. did i mention how STOKED i am to hang out with MARISSA?!?

marissa always has songs on her myspace that explain EXACTLY how i'm feeling!

I felt for sure last night
At once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Stop it...
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my mom and i were talking and we both just feel like we were used. we really dont want to feel this way and in alot of ways we dont mind because we like knowing that he is fed and had a roof over his head but in alot of ways we do mind because we care about him and we dont want to be called or texted just because someone needs a place to stay and a ( Read more... )

this has been a pretty rough week for me. we haven't really talked at all since he left my house on friday and i dont know why. it's really hard for me though. i just like to know that he's okay and i dont. i guess i should stop my worrying because he's not really in my life anymore right? i wish it were that easy...