The person beneath it all

[tillymuchies]

so..im letting go, of caring, i mean not totally but on the inside i just dont care anymore. i want to turn into one of those really smart kids who no one knows and who sits in the back of the class smelling strongly of soap. thats what i want to turn into. but life doesnt let you do things like that, unless you move...wish i could, not to leave

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[neglectedmemory]

o trust me, u dont want to move. i thought it wud be great to like start over and crap. its not, its highly overrated. be happy that despite all the drama u still have ur closest friends and that u can see them basically whenever u want. and if u want to change just change anyways lol fuck wat other ppl think :/ im one of those "smart" (its easy to get good grades in fargo, and people have literally told me "b4 i talked to u i thought u were a goody goody lil nerdy kid") kids, i dont smell like soap, but i sit quietly and no1 knows me, and its not fun lol. ive got the not caring thing down pretty well tho lol from practice :)

[light_on_water]

oh dear. well at least now today makes sense.

[satc515]

I've played the not caring game all year. Yes I did change because of it. Im still trying to figure if it was worth it all. I've been yearnign to be a better student, cuter person, better body. But who am I actually doing it for? I think that is why I hate all of the smart kids. Well at least all of the smart kids whom everyone likes. It just erks me. It seems that they are just putting on a show, they just seem fake.