i'm fighting a battle i can't win....i need help.

 i HATE liars!

im tired of this hiding.... 

 you make it real for me.

I'm cheesin' like shit. I'm cheesin' more than cheese itself. I cheese during class, making ppl think I'm weird as hell!

because of you

 Why can't people just look forward?

Why can't people just see who's in front of them?

Why is it the people who hurt others always turn out to be the luckiest people in the world?

Why do i try so hard?

Why am i fighting?

No one will ever get a definite answer...

I thought music would help me convey my feelings, but I closed my iTunes because it was distracting. Noise. One thing I learned last week, was to turn everything off. Music, T.V., people. Silence (Thanks Bruce George). Get rid of the noise in your life. Let your spirit talk to you. God will take care of the rest.

I've been trying to do just that. ( Read more... )

like links and chains, certain things in life make connections. these connections harbor the essentials to starting certain other things. however, bad connections mean either one of two things.

1. bad links or chains or 2. they're just missing.

connection fails when you have numero dos.

i suffer from number two.

the necessary links and chains ( Read more... )

has been full of nothing but...

discouragement

it looked slim...it probably never had a chance in hell anyway

...but in california, a chance was given to me...i could have grasped it...

it burned out the second i set foot back here....

and the "no chance in hell" greeted me once again...

i wish you were here.....

-_-