A new slate..

[timdg]

Ok i had deleted the last four entries and have deiced to kind of start anew. So I am in the middle. I am making stupid choices and I am stoping it right now! I like two guys. they both make me feel very good, but one is more then the other. I am just..... not sure. I love both of them and I dont know how. I know that i am acting stupid and I

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[jennblader]

That's a start. However, you're still being childish. You're throwing the term love around like it means nothing. Love is not something you experience right off the bat for more than one person. If you're LUCKY, you'll find someone you'll know you'll love but it takes time to develop that love. You're thinking with your dick and it's embarassing. I thought you were different from that Timothy

I know...

[timdg]

I know, and i am not going to say your wrong, because your not. I am 16 and your right i shouldn't have had sex but it happened and nothing could change it. but I can change the way I act and I am trying. And another note, Everything in my journal is true to the bone, I can only lie in person and even then there is now more truth then lies. I am trying so hard not to lie and so far I am doing well. So what now? To learn about the word love, not sex wise but the true meaning of the word. I know it will take awhile Jenn, and I know you know too. So thats that....right?