blah blah blah....family vacations and fakeness

[time_for_danger]

i feel so sick and tired. in more way than one. im sick literally and tired litterally because PMS and the whole family vacation going to bed late in a hotel bed that sucked thing....then im sick and tireed mentally. im sick and tired of letting people walk all over me. im sick and tired of never saying how i feel because im afraid of sounding

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[hoponthebusgus]

ariel, how could you say that you aren't truely loved, when you know i love you so much. your mom used to sit with you because you were little, but maybe if you explained to her that you still feel scared and unsafe, she would become more affectionate to your needs. your nana didn't like her pictures, not because she thought you took them bad, but because they were of her. people are naturally modest, and i'm sure you would feel the same way. i've already heard you say things like "oh i look bad in that picture", and so have i, and so has everyone. it's just a natural human reaction. i understand how you feel about being mentally tired, i've been there and back, and i'm sure have have also. i don't know what else to say, besides i love you, because that's the truth, and when you are down in the dumps like this, sometimes you just don't wanna hear what anyone else has to say. but know that i love you, and that i'm here for you anytime. i hope you know that. i love you. <3 sarah

[time_for_danger]

a few months ago my mom sat with me when i had a nightmare. things are tense now. i guess. i don't know. i don't want to know. i want to dissappear. my nana didn't like the pictures because she thinks shes old and ugly. thats what she says. shes the most beautiful person....ever....inside and out. i need a break from life.

<3 ariel