god i'm so freakin stupid. what i want finally could happen and i back away. WHY!?! and of course my parents don't help. i want to slap myself right now..like really hard.
dude it's my birthday on sunday. and how am i spending it. by waking up at 6 to go to irvine for a polo tourney. i'll be back around 3. then a busy fun-filled day!!