ive started eating chicken again.. and i think that it is helping me get some of my physical strength back, but my mind still has a long way to go. i still need to start grasping reality. im having a hard time... i really hope this is temporary. im going with my mom to illinois tomorrow to visit my dad and brother for christmas... that should be ( Read more... )

i need to stop letting my mind put all the reasons together why the moment im living would karmically work out perfectly to be the moment i die. i need to stop thinking about shit like this. cuz its getting me nowwhere. i wanna be somewhere comfortable. i want to actually live.

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sleep falling in waves ( Read more... )

life is such a crazy roller coaster. at least mine is, anyway. there are days like today, that totally and completely make me feel a sensation that cannot even be described in words. a feeling of total bliss and jubilance that it makes my skin tingle and my face glow. but then there are nights like last night where all i want to do is break ( Read more... )

its been one of those days. the good kind. the kind where every little minute, mundane detail fits into place. nothing monumental. nothing hugely fantastic, just good. and if every detail is good, that makes the whole day great, on an aggregate scale. and now that were here, so far away, i can forgive and im not ashamed, to be the person that ( Read more... )

"its the question that drives us, neo ( Read more... )

http://www.guitar.com.au/guitars/acoustic/martin/000x1.htm my new baby. its a good day when you get a new guitar. and learn good things about good people. time to go make good noises. goodnight.

close the doors. turn off the lights. make some coffee. listen to an album like its the first time all over again. breathe. relax. marinate. feel alive.

im feeling good today. its 12:19, i just woke up, and i feel great. i feel so good, in fact, that i think i'm going to buy another guitar today. its one of those things that you can never have enough of.. i have 3 and i must have more ( Read more... )