That is, livejournal has always been a place where I put my most negative thoughts and leave them to rot, so that I can move on.

So here's one for you.

Stupid crazy childish power-playing bitch can go to hell.

Peace and love ya'll

Hubris is the enemy ( Read more... )

I tried breaking up with the girlfriend again

it didn't work

I'm unhappy

I'm always unhappy, I should go see the counselor

It's been awhile.

Someone committed suicide. She was a close friend of my girlfriend.

Hence chaos.

I feel useless and fat.

My girlfriend just got dropped from all of her classes (almost all)

I need an internship...why am I fucked?

fuck

She's making this very difficult for me. I may have to end this soon.

I think when you first left, I was okay with it. I accepted it as the way life was...the tides had ebbed and you had gone with them...but then when the pain started to sink in a few weeks later...I tried to figure out why you had left ( Read more... )

I made love to her in my dreams last night. I wonder if that's what it really would've been like ( Read more... )

I have this undying desire to cheat...

On everything... :l

And while I watched the sunset as I tried to comfort her...I thought of you fleeting through my dreams, your memory slowly fading from the seams of my conscious being...

I wondered if you would have been as difficult.

I wondered if you would have been as weak.

I'd still like to know.

see, the problem with me is that the first pretty (or not) girl that's nice to me, I suspect might have a thing for me...and I end up stewing with the idea for a day and by the next I'm head over heels for her.

That's a bad thing mind you.

I realized once again today that I utterly despise myself.

and that I still think of you...often.

I might have to quit so I don't have to bring down the others