I Return!

[tingirl]

From the wilds of Houston, I return, exhausted and mentally cleaned out and gloating double time about my awesome dollar store scarves! Which I was told repeatedly people had bought elsewhere for 20-30 bucks. Bwaahaaha SCORE

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[merigreenleaf]

So I take it you had fun? :) And could you sketch the designs before trying it on canvas? I have no idea how your artistic process works so I'm not really sure what to advise.

For me, the costume thing is shyness. I hate being the center of attention, so I don't often dress costume-y (well, other than to the renfaire, obviously. There I'd be out of place in normal clothes, lol!). It wasn't so bad when I was healthy, though- now I'm so terrified of having to run out of a place because I'm nauseous or having people stare at me when I'm already feeling anxious that I don't want to draw attention to myself. When I felt better, I cared far, far less and would wear bodices, horns, cat ears, or dreadfalls around without caring what anyone thought- but only if I had a friend or someone there with me. For some reason I wasn't shy if I had even one other person as company even if they weren't dressed oddly. I dunno, I'm odd.

[tingirl]

Yes, this is exactly what I'm talking about! I don't consider staring/being stared at/being treated as unusual to be rude or upsetting, as long as it's, you know, friendly staring. But I know many people get totally freaked out by it. I feel like, if I'm going to bother getting dressed and leaving the house in the morning, people dang well *better* give me some attention. (Cash and prizes would be even better, but we can start with attention.) And of course even for shy people, being totally ignored is rude too

[merigreenleaf]

LOL! I love your "cash and prizes" comment. ;) I guess I shouldn't mind attention, but it just doesn't mesh well with anxiety. I'm hoping when I feel better, I'll be about to be more outgoing. I miss wearing cat ears randomly. I don't even do my occasional goth clothing anymore because I don't have the energy to bother breaking out that wardrobe (not that I'd have anywhere to keep it, anyway- it's all in bags in the basement since I only have half a closet because I have to share it with my grandmother. Her apartment room downstairs only has a tiny wardrobe). Right now I just get by looking vaguely elven in greens and browns and some leafy and feathered accessories.

I'm not sure how it is with healthy people, though- why would they mind what people think? I guess people just have a tendency to be self-conscious.

I'm still going through the stupid SSRI withdrawal. Fun times, let me tell ya.

Touche- I forgot that you do a lot of WIP posts. :)