Tikky-Tokky - Insideous

[tinkcph]

I've been living on a pretty much constant influx of TikToks since my divorce.
At first because I couldn't sleep without someone giving me some kind of audible background so I wasn't left alone with my thoughts. (This still helps.)

And at first I thought, "this is really gonna fuck up my algorithm

Comments

[kiwiria]

The problem with abuse is that it never (or seldom anyway) goes from 0-100 all at once. It's done in small increments, slowly over a long period of time, so that you don't realize just how bad it's gotten until something else makes you stop up and take stock.

May his ass be permanently itchy, and may his arms be too short.

Of course you're still angry - 4 months is far too short a period of time to move on from that! I disagree that it means he still controls you - it just means that something really rotten happened to you, through no fault of your own. If you let the anger control you, then that would be a different kettle of fish. But the emotion itself? Nah - that's just being human.

You deserve SO much better. And yes - you are amazing! Not just on paper, but in real life too.

[wolvster]

Don't blame yourself, being a people pleaser does not mean anyone is allowed to hurt you. Abuse is sneaky and abusers are insidious. He gaslit you into thinking it's your fault for not setting boundaries, when in reality all this is on him.

I think you're allowed to feel anger, four months is still so fresh and the hurt is so deep. Work that anger, try to turn it into determination; show the world that you can rise above this.
You ARE amazing and whoever is going to get to work with you is a lucky person!