Oook well..let's just say the plan i was speaking of earlier today went down the effin drain.Well i was talkin to megan about the aren situation and what not and i was telling her how if i just talked to him things could be different and yada yada yada.So then she suggests writing him a letter and tell him what's going on since he won't talk to me. ( Read more... )

This entire entry is dedicated to *Starting Over!!* I think i'm really ready this time to move on.It's only hurting me to still have feelings for aren.He has a girlfriend and a steady relationship right now and there is Nothing i can do about it.Maybe i'm not really moving on maybe i'm just putting the feelings i have for him to the side.But either ( Read more... )

Hey ya'll.well Amanda and i didn't get to go to the spot today.her mom ended up having to work so we had no el coche.So i went out with nicki and mike to krispy kreme.Mike had never had it before so we wanted him to experience it.And then i came home and chilled out for a bit and amanda came and got me later bout 7.We went up to the mall and ( Read more... )

hey.wow so this fuckin blows.My mind is completley consumed with thoughts of Aren and i wanna pull my brain out so they go away.I went out tonight with Amanda and Kim and we were driving through the bloomigdale square parkin lot and we're about to get out on bell shoals and guess who comes driving by ( looking really good as usual damn it)..well if ( Read more... )

Hello children.Well i'm sittin at home bored..been up since 9:30 and i've done all i can for the moment.So last night after i wrote i ended up staying awake till like 3:30 and i was talking to people and like everyone keeps bringing up the aren thing which brings me back to a sad place.i know they aren't intentionally doing it to hurt me and that ( Read more... )

Young girl don't hide ( Read more... )

Hey babies!What is goin on.Wow so today was like pretty damn funny..and it ain't even over yet.I laughed soo much today it was nuts.So amanda came n picked me up about 11 or so and we went up to the mall..then we went over to regency cause i had to pick up a shirt and we're at the stop sign waiting to turn and me and amanda are paying like no ( Read more... )

hello lovelys.Dang so today was pretty blah.My brother woke me up at 10 and scared the hell outta me.He barged in my room telling me he was hungry and mommy woulnd't wake up.So i like ran in her room to find out she was laying there wide awake and nicholas hadn't even bugged her.Little shit..lol but i love him.Anyways.So i started my shopping today ( Read more... )

Hello babies!! So once again i have become the insomniac(sp?).I have been having the hardest time sleeping lately and it's making me mad.Like i'm so tired i'm ready to pass out but i cant seem to fall asleep.Anywho.So yah about that plan i had yest for trevor.Here's how that went.I decided that i was too chicken to tell him.Everytime he called he ( Read more... )

hey beautiful ones.Ok so yest i talked to amanda for a long time and she helped me realize what i'm doing wrong in my relationship with trevor.i am 100% ending things with trevor.and this is why.Over the summer last year was really when i got to know him and i loved the person he was.to me and in general.we had a perfect summer and i completley ( Read more... )