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[tintedlenses]

i'm going to start writing letters to myself. maybe i'll be more honest.

this feeling keeps building up inside of me, like heat, like pressure, like hurt. and i have to breathe in deep, tell it to stop.

i just want to be okay.

i know this is my thing, but do i really have to be alone?
when you are a danger to self or others.

Comments

[teawithrushdie]

Gah! I don't want to be the bad guy here, but you're alone because you don't let anyone in. Or you let very few people in but then not all the way. I know logic doesn't really mix well with emotion, but sometimes its better to take a step back and survey the situation from a logical standpoint.

[tintedlenses]

I know you're right. Today someone said that I was very deep, and that it seems like there's so much inside of me and like I'm always thinking but that I never let anyone see that. It wasn't said in a bad way. But it made me realize. I used to love being this complex complicated person who never let anyone in and was always protecting themselves. I don't know if I like that anymore.

I get that.

[teawithrushdie]

Do you at least talk to Princess about all this stuff? Or Danielle? Or anyone? I mean even just letting it out to someone, without feedback or without advice or whatever, just getting out of you, can even help.

[tintedlenses]

I do. :(

[i_live4ourlove]

I've known you for a long time and i feel like we are good friends, but when i read things like this i realize that i really don't know you and i wish i did because you really mean a lot to me and i just want you to be happy. I always want to do something to make you feel better, but i never know what to do... or what to say. Just know that i love you and I'm always here for you.