Comments | tiny20: poem

tiny20

poem

Jan 20, 2004 22:41

here i am... what do you see ( Read more... )

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wiltedxrose January 21 2004, 05:56:20 UTC

i know exactly what you're talking about. though i haven't ever had kids of my own...from the time i was really little to the a couple of years back, i was the mother to two little twin girls (my sisters), and my mother. i was the one that had to hold everyone together. and even now when something goes wrong, i'm the one they call, to hold everyone's pieces together. jonathan gave me the room to break down when i met him. told me it was my right. and i finally did it. someone finally gave me a chance. but i still remember what it was like, to always have to be the strong one, to let life pass me by...but i know how very different it is for us two. i know...that your son is yours, and you can never just up and move and leave the responsibilty...so for that i apologize...knowing that you'll never regain teenage years and young adulthood...i don't know what that's like. you can talk to me about it, if you ever really need someone to talk to. i can listen...and i'll care. *shrugs shoulders* you may believe me and you may not...but i will ( ... )

tiny20 January 23 2004, 11:16:07 UTC

i hope one day someone gives me that chance, but i really don't think it will happen for quite a while... i get use to it... i write a sad poem or go out and party one night and i'm ok for a while longer... maybe one day i will have a husband or boyfriend to share these responsibilities with... who knows.... yes, i will never get to relive those teenage years i lost, nor will i ever get to experience the college life the way someone my age should, but i guess i'll get over it eventually... i mean dimitri is the world to me and i can't imagine him not being here... its just really hard and really scary to be doing all this by myself... sometimes i just dont think i'll ever make it and other times its the best thing in the world and i don't see why everyone doesn't have kids... its an up and down, a give and take... just like everything else in life... i wouldn't change it for the world.... i just wish i had help... or friends closer to me that i can go to when it get particularly hard... i will take you up on your offer... if its gets ( ... )