i would sooo like to remember a time when i had it "together". because that time is definitely not now. how to deal? should i be pragmatic and say, hey this is just part of growing and learning? or do the self-loathing thing? hmm.. in keeping with the common theme here, i've been vacillating between the two.

i keep making really stupid mistakes in lab and wasting time and money because of it. nothing huge and horrible, just little stupid shit that makes me feel really inept. why can't i focus on what's right in front of me long enough to pipet the right volumes of shit? aaaaaaarrrrgh.

.....but i started playing ultimate last week, and i actually had a lot of fun.

I think I'm going to like grad school ( Read more... )

i'm not a big fan of feeling stupid approximately 5 times a day.

i'm starting to get used to being a bit more of a loner. college made me a social creature- i got very used to sharing living space with people, and not really having a 'room of my own' was ok. now i've got all this quiet in my apartment- my roommate is gone visiting family in puerto rico. and it's ok. it motivates me to get out and enjoy the sun. ( Read more... )

chillin in new york for a few days. mom-o had a bbq thing for me yesterday... lots of love and lots of CARDS with lovely little CHECKS inside of them!!! let's just say i have enough money to see landon and/or erika+kyle on July 4th. if the latter two are still alive (?). i'm fishing here ( Read more... )

I am now a St. Louis resident ( Read more... )

soooo ( Read more... )

People here seem bewildered by the enormity of what has happened to their country. Everywhere you go, small crowds are huddled around radios and TV sets silently absorbing the news, blank faced, as if unable to comprehend what they are seeing and hearing. The devastation might be limited to coastal areas but the sense of shock and loss is universal ( Read more... )