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tinymonster

Living in the Land of Yes.

Apr 06, 2011 11:01

Before I got sick, I had always lived in the land of Yes. Yes, I want to go to that party or Yes, I will help you with your project and Yes, I will do that for you. I enjoyed living in the land of yes.

Maybe I enjoyed it because I also sincerely enjoy pleasing other people. There is nothing as horrible in my mind as letting someone I ( Read more... )

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hi! anonymous April 8 2011, 07:05:58 UTC

I found your blog from because I read your comments on Liz's blog that I follow. I just want to point out how what you write in your latest post completely sums up my situation. And thank you for putting words to it! Although I am not on chemo or radiation (might happen at some point), and should probably not complain at all compared to you (since my tumor is grade 2). After I got ill and most of the tumor was removed more than a year ago, the total lack of energy and seizure activity/antiseizure drugs/brain damage has left me in maybe land/no land and it is so hard and sad moving in there from yes land. It needs to be accepted, at least for a while, but it is so damn hard, and a lonely exersice. I wish you all the best in the near future, and thank you so much for your blog. I'll check in on it!

Warm wishes and hopes all the way from northern Europe,
Ingrid

Re: hi! tinymonster April 8 2011, 14:08:44 UTC

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Re: hi! anonymous April 15 2011, 08:19:09 UTC

Thank you so much.

I think my problem is that it is very difficult to say no. Because I want to say yes. There is so much I want to do! And I appreciate the people in my life so much that more than anything I wish to be there for them, like they are for me, like I used to be. Which I suppose is basically a good thing. The problem is that it very often ends with falling to pieces, not being able to do even what I prioritize most highly. Because I don't manage to say no. Which is, as I am sure you know, even harder to do when life all of a sudden is no longer an abstract seemingly forever lasting condition. And this inability to limit myself leaves me with more seizures, more confusion.

From now on I will think of your advise when I want, want, want to say yes, but know that I shouldn't- Consider yourself a role model!

All the best,
Ingrid