Too Much Fudgin' Perspective Part 89
Friday night I got real tipsy.
I shouldn't be drinking, but I was under so much stress, and it looked like things were starting to swing my way.
Friday afternoon, my co-worker Wayne got a call from an IBM manager for whom I would be working if this contracting gig goes through. I took this as a good sign.
So I intended to have one Fresno's Texas Mug of Sam Adams Winter Lager (a TM is 33 oz.), but that one turned into a few. I needed to do something before I drove home, so I walked to the movie theater and saw "Miracle". I loved this film, though I think I would have remembered it more had I not been drinking.
Saturday I hunkered down and started learning Java's Swing library.
But on Sunday I got a call I wish I hadn't received.
My friend Jon was found dead on his bathroom floor BY HIS SISTER !!! SHe hadn't heard from him in a few days, and it was his birthday (30th I think). She went to his place, and found him dead on his bathroom floor.
A bunch of us are angry, and also feeling guilty aboot this. We sort of lst contact with Jon. He had problems, but he was a good person. Better than me. HE was also diabetic and on insulin. SO God knows what really happened. I know he became unhappy and let himself slide. We feel guilty because we feel as if we should have been more there for him. But having gone what I went through, I understand how a person can only save themself; nobody else can do anything for them. All another person can do is let someone know that they support them ,and are there for them.
And then this morning I found out that the IBM manager previously mentioned finally spoke with Wayne. Wayne indicated that she seemed pretty excited aboot me.
SO here I face the possibility of making 30% more money than I currently do, on a one year contract, which will allow me to attend the SetFocus training program part time at night. I also found out that my promissory note was sent to me via email, for the loan to pay for SetFocus.
But none of that seems important right now...
I shouldn't be drinking, but I was under so much stress, and it looked like things were starting to swing my way.
Friday afternoon, my co-worker Wayne got a call from an IBM manager for whom I would be working if this contracting gig goes through. I took this as a good sign.
So I intended to have one Fresno's Texas Mug of Sam Adams Winter Lager (a TM is 33 oz.), but that one turned into a few. I needed to do something before I drove home, so I walked to the movie theater and saw "Miracle". I loved this film, though I think I would have remembered it more had I not been drinking.
Saturday I hunkered down and started learning Java's Swing library.
But on Sunday I got a call I wish I hadn't received.
My friend Jon was found dead on his bathroom floor BY HIS SISTER !!! SHe hadn't heard from him in a few days, and it was his birthday (30th I think). She went to his place, and found him dead on his bathroom floor.
A bunch of us are angry, and also feeling guilty aboot this. We sort of lst contact with Jon. He had problems, but he was a good person. Better than me. HE was also diabetic and on insulin. SO God knows what really happened. I know he became unhappy and let himself slide. We feel guilty because we feel as if we should have been more there for him. But having gone what I went through, I understand how a person can only save themself; nobody else can do anything for them. All another person can do is let someone know that they support them ,and are there for them.
And then this morning I found out that the IBM manager previously mentioned finally spoke with Wayne. Wayne indicated that she seemed pretty excited aboot me.
SO here I face the possibility of making 30% more money than I currently do, on a one year contract, which will allow me to attend the SetFocus training program part time at night. I also found out that my promissory note was sent to me via email, for the loan to pay for SetFocus.
But none of that seems important right now...