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[tmaye]

My parents keep telling me that God is the only answer and what not, and that no one will make me happy until I can make myself happy, and that I wont find true happiness until I find it in God. I dont even know how to go about that. I know that I rely on others too much and that I have pushed people out of my life by relying on them all the time

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find happiness in god

[morgan783]

what does it mean - find happiness in god?

Re: find happiness in god

[tmaye]

my parents are really big christians, and I really dont have a relationship with God anymore since one of my really close friends died. I just didn't want to hear anything to about Him, or have anything to do with Him. They tell me that once I give everything up to Him and put all of this behind me that I will find true happiness. I am still unsure about it so I have never really tried.

Re: find happiness in god

[morgan783]

so do you leave a present under the tree? i dont get this give everything to god stuff. if hes god isnt it all his anyway? What do your parents expect you to do? sorry for so many questions.

Re: find happiness in god

[tmaye]

They just want me to give everything I have to him and not run away from him. Yes technically it is his anyway, but he is not going to force me to follow him in anyway. They dont want me going out and partying and whatnot, which I dont except for every now and then. They want me to follow what he has for me and rely on Him and not myself or others. I really dont understand all of it either, and I dont really know how to go about doing it all. My parents just want to find my purpose in life through him, I am sure that I have just as many questions on the subject as you do, so its really not that big of a deal that you are asking things

[myphoenixtears]

I don't know about helping, but I can say that I'm the same way. I rely on people. It's weird because I'm so fiercly independant when it comes to learning and doing stuff. I want to get stuff like that all by myself, but as far as relationships, idk I'm always in one somehow. I think I like subconciously go for a new guy as soon as I don't have one anymore. *shrugs* who knows.

[grumpmcgump]

I posted a comment in Lin-z's Wednesday journal that might be helpful... As far as God goes, don't get me started...

dont hold out

[morgan783]

Dude! If you know about god dont keep it a secret.
Whos lin-z?

Re: dont hold out

[tmaye]

no, he just has the same questions as I do, its not that he is holding out... its that he doesn't know about how he feels on God. What are your views.

Re: dont hold out

[morgan783]

My views on god
I dont know. How can you know if there is a god? Is it possible to interview him? I guess when I think of god its sort of like maybe, if hes there, hes just having fun with us. Like rats in a maze. All the rotten stuff that goes on in the world makes me doubt. But when I look up - I like astronomy - its hard to believe that something so big and amazing like the universe got here all by itself. I'm confused. How do your parents know there is a god? Its funny, i dont write in my journal at all. There doesnt see to be anything worth saying. But I read stuff in other peoples and my mind takes off.

[ti_flatline]

*is thinking. it's a slow process* really, to "give it all up to God", you have to just put God first. First thing in the morning; praise God and pray. First thing you do when a problem arises; ask God for help. There's no "official" process of getting it together with God. It's a slow and sometimes painful thing to do. (I'm still sorking on it) As far as the bad stuff here, this world belongs to Satan. There are millions and millions of people that are living for Satan and doing what he wants. God gave us all that choice. It would be unjust to take it away. I have to go, I'll elaborate more later.